I ate this green tea ice cream from Raffles City basement on recent Thursday with my colleague. We had dinner before that at Shokudo at City Link, so we were quite full already but I finished abt 2 cups of green tea ice cream including his share.

When i do not have appetite for food, I still can finish desserts. I simply love desserts. I was reflecting about it...

Desserts makes me feel happy while eating them. 甜品给我很幸福的感觉，我就是喜欢这种很简单的幸福。

1. Ice-cream (green tea, mango, with nuts...)
2. Yogurt mixed ice-cream
2. Waffles
3. Waffles with Ice Cream or chocolate syrup
4. Chinese desserts (ice mango sago, tao suan...)
5. Cakes (tiramisu!, durian, carrot cake, cheese...)

I feel very much consoled and comforted by my friends overwhelming reaction and concern for me. Thank you. Thank you Delia. Thanks Pch.

Now the problem is really nothing when i think of how my friends consoled me :) It really touched me.

I hate the feeling of being intimidated.

I must become stronger. I must keep my goals and priorities in mind all the time. I am too weak. I must become stronger and better!

I thought I got over it. Whatever it is, no matter how i feel, i cannot and will not dwell in these. Being in self-pity and self-saddness is useless. Move on. Look ahead. Only physically alone. I'm not alone. Be satisfied. Be contended. Be HAPPY. Work hard. Work hard. and WORK HARD.

Work hard at work! Focus, let not others influence you, nor let them sway you, be strong, be firm. Stand by your principles. Keep your values. We are not Jesus, who stood by his faith to save men but at least we can learn from him.

Since i started this job, this week is the busiest! Busy yet fulfilling.

Perhaps my heart has become stronger and more immune to emotions now. The fact is the Truth really hurts but it is also the truth that let you understand the harsh reality of life, let you see people's true colors and made you into a stronger person.

I got over it. That was the last chance for us. I must not push my luck any further. Thank you God.

Have you ever think of someone and wish for something and that someone appears and that something happens?

Ignorance is bliss. Some things are better not to be known. I wish I never knew this. Now i'm facing the worst consequences ALONE. With NO friends at all to go through this with me. I used to have Lauren.

Tired, yet I CAN'T let things hit me DOWN. A mix of False front. Pretence. Being Strong. Determined are what i'm now.

I want to go beserk, flare up, throw temper, or any action that can let my anger OUT, so people can mind their own business. But between ignoring and disturbing, i prefer the latter from him. Has it finally come to the state that we are not friends? Betrayal came to my mind first...

Friends also ACCEPT you for WHO YOU ARE.

I fell from heaven to hell.

Tomorrow i will create my own heaven :)

A Friend

A friend trusts you
A friend understands you
A friend will speak up for you
You don't need any clarification
Don't need any explanation and your friend still trust you

Pimples really cannot stop haunting me!!!

I should visit a Gynaecologist.

Possibly Retribution, paying the price now for grave mistakes committed in last life.

The short meeting with my jc buddy Tze Hern and his friends turned out to be unexpectedly good. To my surprise, I felt guilty for not sending him off today. I was a little worried after hearing today news about the crazy man stabbing people to death in Tokyo. He is going to Japan for one month. People must get together to recall and enjoy the good old memories in school. He actually remembers some things that i don't.

Delia: Do you remember that Samuel gave you bags of coins to pay class fund?

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Actually long time ago, I already subconsciously expect that it IS coming, but i only thought of avoiding and preventing things from happening, and that was how i reacted. It has never come across my mind to accept and ignore things as they are.

Verbal sexual harassment. Has he ever even REFLECT that his words are form of sexual harassment? I know men are sex creatures but he is a further disgrace to men.

It could be due to my background being from girls school and a conservative and strict family but I simply LOVE my background. I love the way I'm brought up. The Boys class later did made me stronger. But I'm weaker than what i expected myself to be.

Accepting this job itself is already a great change and turning point for me. This is never my dream and it will never become my dream. If it can bring me closer to my dreams by monetary returns, I may persevere on. Now my dream is to go Europe or Germany at end of this year. Dreams can be that simple.

Dreams don't have to be something big to be called a dream.

Accepting things for what they are. Accepting people for who they are. Accepting people for their flaws in character. I'm not a saint but learning to accept and forgive makes me a happier person. The working world is really about accepting things for what they are, unless you've the authority and power to change them.

Mahjong. I like Mahjong. Exercises my brains, speed up my thinking process.

I'm not doing well at work, will not dwell too much on this. When i'm reflecting about work, his words and advices rings in my ears. When i think abt his words, i feel more pressurized. Pressure can make people charge forward OR retreat backwards, so which WAY to GO now?

I know i can become one of the top too, just like him. I'll take a longer time but how long can i carry on before i rise to be the top? My threshold for stress is high but depends on what type of pressure it is. Different work faces different pressure.

Things are not working out well. I know i should do something to make things better, change, change & change, just do it, just do it & JUST DO IT! No point indulging in my own self-pity. But i dun wan change some things. I just dun wan to change. That is just me!

Not change, rather improve on the current me. Improve, improve & improve!

I love the stubborn me sometimes, is this stubborness that made me stand by my principles. but hate the stubborn me too, coz sometimes being stubborn does not help at all!

I wonder what is the status now.

Met Delia yesterday. Don't need for exchange of words. The mere presence of friends give me a lot of comfort. That's how they are important to me. That's why i treasure them so much.

Time machine. How many times i wish that time can just stand still at those moments. Those moments that we had. Those precious moments that only happen once. No retake. No repeats. That is why is precious.

I really miss my friend so much. So much that i wish i can strike lottery to have money to fly there and see her. The words Germany, made in Germany, Adidas inevitably reminds me of her.

Random thoughts now. So if u are reading my blog now, you may not understand what i am talking about.