Complain queen is here again. I really hate my hair now. piece of shit. argh. Long, messy, thin, bald. Hair loss. Equals to ?? Ugly shit.

Horrible microecons. horrible econs. whatever. Why izzit that the grade C and the word "credit" starts with the same letter? Forget it. And the SENSELESS project is really a WASTE of my time. I have to research on some mortgage loans & property sector. *puke*

I have been thinking. Read susan blog and thinking abt it. I CAN't understand HOW izzit that relationship takes time and trust to build but it can be gone the next minute. It takes one mistake, one stupid thing, one gossip, one misunderstanding or even silence and is ALL gone. GONE. gone and gone. LOST. Friendship, kinship... Relationship is really a TWO way traffic to work, if u alone trying to do something but the other party simply dun care then u know the answer already. but at least u TRIED ur best so u will NOT have any regrets when u look back. Relationships are vulnerable. so vulnerable. Thats why true friends dun just come by chance. At the end of life, u may be only left with a few friends coz people and things change. Maybe is all FATED. I dunno wat to do either. Maybe i should let things be. yeah. Why be so hard on myself? I sound like a preacher here. Enough for the day. ShUt Up.

I really can't understand wat people are thinking nowsdays! What's wrong with them? What's the use being a highly educated person when you dun even know how to return things to the rightful owner! U mean u're so hardup for money that u need to take my 6610i to sell? Anyway is not a matter of wat hp model it is, the thing is u picked it up and NOT return to me! Maybe it could have been a pickpocket. Whatever, all the same.

This is how far education and school can bring us. They can only impart knowledge but not integrity and moral values. What's the problem here?

I just lost my hp at the toa payoh hub. That place is supposed to be fond memories of my jc days hang out but now? Anyway people be careful ok. I always think my is a old model that no1 wants so i tend to be careless. Old model but new phone. I used it less than a year! ~!

Here is a MV of My Name is Kim Sam Soon, video clips of filming scene etc. Love the show :) I think the KSS couple are very compatible, even hope that they are together in real life. Looking at them in the video, feels like they are really a pair :P

Went to try the fortune telling at SIM fun fair. Refused to try it last yr coz i dun wan to be influence by wat a fortune teller will tell me and think too much abt his words. The 1st thing he said abt me is stubborn! I never knew i am stubborn. He said i should find a man stronger than me to maintain the good relationship. I have doubts abt wat he say though part of it is accurate.

Then i asked my sis "Am i stubborn?"

My sis reply "The whole family is stubborn. Even i am stubborn, inherited from parents."

COme to think of it quite true. I think my stubbornness comes from my unwillingness to let go of certain things which are already a history, a past that just will NOT come back. And i am the only one like a fool still hanging on to it when others dun care and already moved on. 一切不可能回到原点。 I have never look at myself from this angle though i know i still can't let go. Discovering the stubborn side of me... My sis advice abt fortune telling "No good to believe in them coz they control you and ur thoughts subconsciously." Yep, i rather pray to God abt my problems etc than to think abt wat he said. Our fate are in our own hands! but he said one thing that makes me motivated to work hard, he said i will be a nu3 qiang3 ren2 :)

Was pretty lazy to upload photos after the stupid comp went bonkers and some photos got to wait for pple send to me. Photos from top to bottom are latest to earliest. The photos may be quite long ago but better late than never. They are mostly friends birthday party. The most recent one was my sec 2 class gathering at holland village abt 2, 3 weeks ago. I want to have a proper jc class gathering like to hear them talk "cock". Baby pics are photos of my little niece :)

The classic photo. I think this pic is nicer but is without flash so really can't focus!

The pretty gals...

The miracle of life begins here seeing how a baby grows day by day...

I just came to this world...

I'm sleeping...

One month old when we had the chinese One-mth old celebration.

4 months old...

6 months old now...

Loved this pic the most. Think is qte hard to get babies into this position and snapped on time. All these pics taken by my sis-in-law.

I'm 6 mths old! Yeah :0)

She likes to play with her feet...

ALL so CUTE :)

Jeff's b'day celebration but he didn't buy a bday cake. The buffet served is good :)

Jem and me.. do we've the couple look? haha. but is not wat u all think.

My jc classmates who are mostly guys. Sitting beside is MY most BeLoVeD delia :)

Shirley bday. ya i know it was mths ago la...

can't think of a caption la...

Pris' b'day. Can u guess who's the bday girl?

Even the bday candles are so cute..

Yep the b'day gal is the one in pink. Her bday cake has 3 forever frenz bears.. so cute =)

here's one more...

Have u ever read blog that is a mirror of your own thoughts? After reading it, u feel so attached to it that u always want to go back and read coz u feel that u feel the same way as the blogger. I juz did. I dunno if is alright to mention her name here. Unexpectedly, two consecutive entries of hers are what i'm going through and thinking of too! Her worries abt the future are what i'm worrying abt too. Not that i know her very well but juz feel we are alike in some ways. I am very much attached to it now.

I should really learn how to snap out of my memories and day dreaming. Got to do some project work now. There's group meeting tomorrow.

As my comp's internet is still down so i am even lazier to blog. haha. I have beeen shuffling between 2 PCs at home, running from my room to kitchen: To transfer files from kitchen PC to ext. harddisk/thumbdrive then to my PC and vice versa. very irritated already. kuai4 fa1 feng1 le4! ,

Now playing my favourite songs by FIR :) This FIR's Fei1 Xing2 Bu4 Lou4 album is excellent. or i shd say it suits my style more? Is more of ballad style than rock style. I love the Yu Yin Hua, the starting of the song, the music is rather special, feels like mixture of some anicent japanese music & modern chinese music. Of cos the deut Tian2 Ye2 is english mixed chinese :) Impressed. msn me for them.

Life has been pretty good so far. the same. What MORE can i EXPECT? :) Sometimes u've to tell yourself this so u'd b contented and happy. Saw ni zhen's blog "Failure is a feeling one should never get too used to." I agree. Not that i am facing any crisis or failure now, but juz feel i am too used to certain things in life, too used to my own thinking abt exams that i dun study that hard now. Too used to a heck care attitude. TOo used to many things. Habit habits and bad habits, i need to get rid of YOU!

k thats for the day folks.