Met new friends yesterday, i simply have nothin to talk to them. After that, i start thinking abt everything again... Tmr i'm starting the horrible job. Wish me the best.

In 1st yr NS
an overseas medical graduate...
from a famous & well-off secondary school...
above average looks
loud & hoarse voice
has big hands
looks fit
a faithful devotee of God
outgoing personality.

but so?

I'm fantasizing & daydreaming again... hmm.. but i know i muz return to the real world.

因为不能拥有，所以更珍惜一切。

a different kind of stress...

Today i worked at my sister's company at kallang industy area. I took 8 hours to contact 40 pple to confirm their attendence for a workshop tomorrow. Most of them are dua pais, either GM or some section manager. So u know, dua pai are always busy having some meeting or whatever, so hard to reach them. Only 22 persons are going for the workshop. And i'm scared... what if they dun turn up tmr??!!! Coz after calling them i had to email them the confirmation mail with the venue & time of the workshop, so if they dun turn up tmr, everyone will come after me... I know i;m getting paranoid here. My sister is a like a typical, capable working woman, feel pressurised that i cant produce work up to standard. Means i cant slack at all coz everybody in that small corner is watching. I'm NOT lazy at work but i do slack if there's nothing to do. And from the next week till the month ends is telemarketing at her company. Gosh! I have to call people for the whole day. I have to say even if is doing easy tasks but u'll still feel stressed... Coz is qte hard to find a satisfactory job within such a short time and i hate agencies, so i took on this telemarketing thingy and the pay is good. It is a distributing company for computer products etc, they ever fire pple who cant meet sales target!!! For now i better ENJOY while i can b4 next wk starts.

I saw this from a friend's blog & find it interesting...

People say life is a book. How you made it out to be depends on what you write in it. Then how do you erase the things you've enscribed in the book? You can recall the events by flipping back to previous pages, but u cant changed what that is written down... ...

the shutter :|

Wanted to go east coast park to cycle but the friend who organised it cancelled it. Nevertheless i still met up with my buddy for a movie. Havent seen her for almost 3 months? We watched the thai horror movie, Shutter. I seem to have fetish for thai horror movies coz they are usually based on true stories and they have a proper plot, NOT juz sound effects and bloody scences only to scare you without understanding what is going on. I would rate the shutter as 4/5 stars. Is scary enough but with a clear plot. I notice something, some thais looked like mixed race, very sharp features, not bad looking :p Pple who likes horror movie, i highly recommend this movie.

After the movie, we juz shop around as usual. Then we went ktv, haha. Coz i owned sharon a belated birthday present, so i treated her to the ktv as her b'day present. Ok we were supposed to sing from 5 to 9pm, then after 6pm, the system has problems, the songs couldn't play. Then we moved to another room and waited for abt 30 mins for them to get ready the whole system. K Box usually dun chase customers away when is on time, and they own us time for the screwed up system. But we still left at 9pm, coz we were tired and my friend was feeling cold.

the main character, tun, who's a photographer.

tun's gf, jane. she's pretty. i think she has the typical thai-chinese look.

戏如人生，人生如戏。Life is like a drama. I see drama at home, see drama happening to myself and my friends. I'm going to talk abt post marriage life, mayb i'm not in the position to coz i'm on single status. What happens when after marrying for 30 years,

1) there are only insults & assaults when u talk to ur spouse?
2) there is total communication breakdown?
3) you pick on ur spouse for everything he/she does?
4) there seems to be a 3rd party but there is none at all.
5) when u are too old to divorce?
6) you've to find things to do to avoid quarrels?
7) when is more than juz mere tolerance?
8) then u realise is a mistake?
9) you wish u can juz leave the family behind?
10) there is no attempt to understand one another?

I'm still young and i havent seen much, havent experience major failures or any mishaps or terrible sufferings or diseases... my perceptions and character are still changing...

I'm fine juz need to lament abt certain things so i feel better.

the new safra.

I went to the new SAFRA near mount faber today. I wish i could apply for the membership!!! I like the swimming pool! Entrance fee is $3 for the public and free for the members. The swimming pool is under maintainence now... looks like i gotta wait. There's a bowling alley, gym, arcade cum lan shop, jackpot room, billiards room, disco, tennis court, cafe etc. But the gym is under another company, not safra's. There were so many kids in the arcade... All ns men or whatever status u're in, u can apply the safra membership for $32 per year. And u know u can purchase gv & cathay movie tickets in a bulk at cheaper price! Ok coz is near my house, so is conveninent for me to use the facilities...

After exploring safra. I went home, and i was slacking and watching some vcd. Then my good friend called me to ask me to meet her & her bf and his friends. I didn't feel like going out but i'm curious to see how her bf looked like, so i agreed to go for the dinner. When i was about to step out of the house, i checked my hp sms and realise that something cropped out, so she did not want me to go. I was irritated. And this is the 3rd time i experienced this. When i'm all ready to go out, then u tell me not to go. The 2nd time is when i arrived at the place, then i knew the whole thing is cancelled, and nobody informed me. I dun bear grudges against pple for this, coz they dun mean to change appointments at last minute, but at least pls call me immediately to tell me. Since i have changed, i went out with parents for dinner at chinatown and i bought this korean drama vcd which i've been looking high & low for it. There goes my money again... but I need to entertain myself next week before i start working full time.

luxurious-looking pool at the new safra
near my home.

Sleeping has become my hobby when i'm at home. But i went to find a job today. I found a part time job at a clinic near my house. Now i'm juz waiting for them to call me to tell me when to start. I still want to work full time for this holiday if it dosent clash with my part time job. And i shopped today, bought a 3/4 pants and a shirt at habour front after the job interview there. There goes my savings...

My friend has closed down his blog because it's over publicised. It makes me wonder what is the purpose of writing a blog? Or rather what is my purpose for blogging? Val said pple who blog are exhibitonists. Quite true. I think is also because they are lonely and need a medium to air their unhappiness. Perhaps it is like that for me. To me, a blog is a online journal for pple to see, so u'll only write things that u want pple to know, and not what u dun wan pple to see. Does this make sense? Maybe this is a hypocritical attitude coz u only write things pple want to see, so u'll never reveal your feelings. For me is a also a way for me & my friends to keep in touch, to know what i'm doing now coz i dun see them often.

The chalet at aloha loyang was ok. I was looking forward to the pulau ubin trip but is cancelled coz many were still sleeping as they stayed up the whole night. And the weather was surprisingly good for the past 2 days at chalet! I liked the sea breeze, my dream house is a bunglow facing the sea. On tues, went swimming with jinny & played mah jong till 5am but the rest continued. I'm better at mah jong now though still not clear of the rules.

Wed afternoon, went wild2 wet with anfernee, daryl, di you & jinny. It was fabulous. It was my 1st time for such water activities. I never been to fastasy island. On wed night, I went to explore the park and realise that downtown east is so near the chalet. I ran back from there happily thinking is a long distance for exercising but is so near!!! Oh ya jinny, i know u were worried for me when i went walking around alone and had not return. Thanks for calling to ask.

Thurs morning, when i woke up at 6am, leo passed me the keys then i realised my transportation are all gone!!! Vincent & eunice left with some others. I like to sit behind on vincent's lorry. Check out time is 10.30 and i had nothin to do, so went with lauren, ernest & randal to macdonald for breakfast. On the way, ernest picked up $10 bucks. How lucky can he be. After which, me & lauren went to the park to walk walk as it was still early. Dirty beach.

My body is aching when i came home this morning. I think is because of yesterday wild wild wet's slidings and jogging plus swimming. I had a good sleep finally, your own bed is still the most comfortable! Thanks to everybody for making this chalet a success!!! I'm lazy but hopefully i will start my job hunting tomorrow. I wan to shop!!!

The bbq... I love barbequed marsh mellows!

anfernee, diyou, daryl, jinny & me. Went wildx2 wet together in
the afternoon, it was fun.

the chalet house.

Went with dad to queensway shopping centre as pa needs a new pair of track shoes. When was the last time that i went out with dad alone? I can't remember. When we grow up, we seldom go out with our parents. Juz now was a good father and daughter bonding session. haha.

Went ktv with margaret and her friend at party world beside hello singtel @ orchard. We sang continuously for 4 and half hours! There were only 3 pple so i get to sing my favourite songs almost all the time without feeling pai seh. At the beginning, it was really shiok! After 2 hrs, we cant tahan and it was really cold. They were in jackets anyway but not me... : Hmm my singing is ok of coz :p but cant sing a high key for long. I was at orchard but i didnt shop at all, not even window shop, amazing! Is a long weekend, is so crowded everywhere. I juz went home with marg after that. I self-proclaim bankrupt!!! Spending money like that everyday, i need a job. I muz look for one after the chalet next week. For now, juz take a break 1st and live off my parents.

After rotting at home for 2 whole days, i went out today since early morning. I had an appointment with a skin specialist. And my doctor is on maternity leave, so another female doctor (again!!) is standin in for her. I think i'm a sexist. I know women can be equally capable as men but i somehow dun trust female doctots especially today's one. She dosent look like a doctor at all and she's extremely skinny... ok i shall being stop being judgemental. Pple are judgemental and will comment on 1st impressions. We cant escape from that. If there are things u cant change in life, learn to accept them for the way they are. Anyway my horrible acne problem is on and off... how i envy those with good complexion.

Then me & mum shopped at orchard awhile coz mum said she has nothin to buy. Mum already has a lot of clothes, takin up my cupboard space too. After that i went to meet ni zhen & wendy at si mei. We went ni zhen's house, i didnt know is a condo! Wao! Very nice fountains & kids pool. We completed a jigsaw puzzle together for yue ting birthday present. (Dun tell her ok, then it'll be a surprise). And ni zhen's cat look like some expensive, rare breed cat but it used to be a stray cat. It looks scary when i 1st saw it. I dun like cats. They dun feel as friendly as dogs. They give me a very mysterious feeling. Pls dun take offence, cat lovers.

For dinner, met up with my secondary sch old mates! WAh.... it been such a long time since i last saw u, feli! Suppose to have more pple but only 5 of us.. the usual more- on- pple. haha. We ate at billy bombers at hereen then we sat at mc cafe where we started some serious talks abt *ahhem... and we were kinda loud but who cares. But i'm not the one talkin most of the time, coz i've no experience. I didnt know they are so open abt certain things like xxx. They really grown up when i think of our good days back in sch.... B4 i met them, i knew they were gg to talk about relationships as usual. They can never avoid that topic! Pple at our age always talk abt relationships, mayb this is a sweepin statement to u. But pple around me seem to be all caught up in some love problems whether they've a stead or not. We had a really good conversation, now i know more abt.... I thought we went home too early but everybody was tired. My fren asked me why i am still not attached and who likes me, i like who...blah x3. The same old questions i have been repeatedly ask.

To my dear frenz who are concerned abt my love life>>> Let me tell u why i'm not attached:

nobody likes me &

i dun like anybody.

i've never seriously like a guy b4 i supposed coz

i dun wan to be hurt.

i hate guys but i love them as frenz,

i'm not pretty enough, but i'm proud of myself and thank God for who i'm.

i've bad complexion but i learn to live with it,

i think i'm weird,

i may be a lesbian subconsciously but i only like guys,

i'm juz waiting patiently & eagerly for the right person.

Pple who read my blog often will know i dun write much on my feelings & thoughts. This is unlike me, i'm not so open abt personal things on blog. But pple do change with time, pple are constantly changing. Thats it for now. And my girl frenz wan to introduce me to some guys...

To my dear frenz>>> we are all from girls sch but i know them, dun make me sound so pathetic ok :p haha But still if there's any good catch muz tell me! haha. Ok I'm gg to start my nonsense again. I'll stop here. Hope to see u pple soon.

exams over!!!

The exams are finally over! Went to eat with wendy, ni zhen, siti and some others at Seoul Garden at Taka. This time i didnt overfed myself with food at the buffet, which is good. I've been eating more than what i usually take for past few days. I muz exercise tmr! Probably jogging at my house's park, the park where the most concerned missing girl's body was dumped. Sounds scary, my fren actually sms me to tell me not to go there. Is still safe. I still wan to jog there though i'm scared. I need to exercise. I need to sleep. I'm having break outs again, if only i have good complexion. Ok no more side tracking...... After the buffet, ping2, siti & lauren went OP with me, i bought a shirt to accumulate enough amount for the members' card. We wanted to walk to Plaza Sing but it was raining!!!! Then we shopped at taka & wisma atria, Forever 21 is forever so crowded and clothes not placed in order. Bumped into charissa!!! Havent seen her 2 yrs?! I called her 1st, we exchanged numbers. I realise i still miss my sec 3 class a lot when i saw her though we not that close. Took mrt to doby ghaut with siti & ping2. When we were there it has stopped raining! Siti went starhub to collect her sim card, i love her, she's so crappy and funnie!!! We walked all the way back to orchard, coz siti wanted to check out this malay costume boutique there. We ate hagen das ice cream at marriot hotel and talked for some time b4 heading for far east plaza. There are 2 malay costume shops at far east. wah. ha.

craving for food!!!

I realise something.. i have very good & big appetite during pre-exams period! Yeah...... i like to eat! I'm craving for sushi & tawanmochi, that thing that looks like smooth beancurd, i know i got the spelling wrong!!! Somebody, pls leave a msg on tagboard & tell me the correct spelling? But i dun like raw meat. Some of those raw jap food makes me want to puke when i eat them. I only eat raw salmon with wasabi- to get rid of the raw taste. I'm craving for desserts also! The hot dessert: barley with beancurd skin with gikko nuts. & dao suan. I like to eat dessert as supper, but i dun like supper... contradicting ya.... this is me i guess. I dun take supper often, coz i get fat easily. Anyway for past few days, i have been listening to Liang Jing Ru 燕尾蝶 cd, not bad. Is still the same old style of jing ru love songs, except for a few rock songs. My dear sister bought qte a lot CDs recently including Sun Yan Zi's newest album. I like her new song 我的爱。 Ya it's juz a typical love song, but is nice. I like sun yan zi, i plan to collect all her cds but only have two so far.