Back from my taiwan trip
There were some disputes and confrontations during the trip. I am glad that is over. I am glad that we talked things out.
I am quite disappointed. I thought that I understand my friends, I thought that I knew them but I don't.
Someone whom I only knew for a few days actually pointed out that I am the possessive-type of friends. I reflected on this and realized that I indeed am a possessive friend.
I expect my friends to tell me everything. If not almost everything and update me about how they are doing. I don't wish to know about them through facebook or from a third party mouth, regardless of who the third party is. It has to be my friend telling me personally how he or she is doing.
I am also someone that my friends can rely on and count on me. If I had promised them something, I will fulfill the promise. I always feel obliged towards them if they ask me for help or to accompany them.
The question is why am I a possessive friend? It is solely because of my character? Righteous, royal to friends?
Or it is that I am feeling lonely, so I subconsciously become a possessive and a very good friend to fill up these emptiness and loneliness in me?
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It has to be this trip, each time after every good trip ends, I will miss the people that traveled with me and miss the moments we shared together.
Now I am confused, I do not know if is just the normal post-syndromes of a good holiday OR that I have... I have fall in love with him? Love is too much. I should say or that I could have liked him?
I agree with his friend that we are compatible. I had never thought about this until his friend mentioned it. We are compatible but... but we do not have mutual feelings for each other.
I am still confused, I am hoping is just the the normal post-syndromes of a good holiday.
I am just unhappy with the fact that I do not know what type of girl he likes. I am not jealous of the girl he likes is not prettier than me. Yes, it has to be the fact that I thought i understand my friend, i thought i knew what type of the girls he likes but actually i am mistaken.
There were some disputes and confrontations during the trip. I am glad that is over. I am glad that we talked things out.
I am quite disappointed. I thought that I understand my friends, I thought that I knew them but I don't.
Someone whom I only knew for a few days actually pointed out that I am the possessive-type of friends. I reflected on this and realized that I indeed am a possessive friend.
I expect my friends to tell me everything. If not almost everything and update me about how they are doing. I don't wish to know about them through facebook or from a third party mouth, regardless of who the third party is. It has to be my friend telling me personally how he or she is doing.
I am also someone that my friends can rely on and count on me. If I had promised them something, I will fulfill the promise. I always feel obliged towards them if they ask me for help or to accompany them.
The question is why am I a possessive friend? It is solely because of my character? Righteous, royal to friends?
Or it is that I am feeling lonely, so I subconsciously become a possessive and a very good friend to fill up these emptiness and loneliness in me?
--
It has to be this trip, each time after every good trip ends, I will miss the people that traveled with me and miss the moments we shared together.
Now I am confused, I do not know if is just the normal post-syndromes of a good holiday OR that I have... I have fall in love with him? Love is too much. I should say or that I could have liked him?
I agree with his friend that we are compatible. I had never thought about this until his friend mentioned it. We are compatible but... but we do not have mutual feelings for each other.
I am still confused, I am hoping is just the the normal post-syndromes of a good holiday.
I am just unhappy with the fact that I do not know what type of girl he likes. I am not jealous of the girl he likes is not prettier than me. Yes, it has to be the fact that I thought i understand my friend, i thought i knew what type of the girls he likes but actually i am mistaken.
