Read anfernee's blog and i've something to say... I encourage my friends to confess to pple they like but when it comes to myself, i become hesitant and ultimately i wont tell at all & juz let time help me forget. Sometimes i liked the younger me, i was braver, ignoring the consequences, i confessed. The next time i like someone what would happen? Nobody knows. I juz wan to pray to Him. Life is such a contradiction at times...

I went Chinatown with my friends today, not as crowded as expected, mayb coz it was in the afternoon. Now there is no more place that is "safe" & convenient to dl songs, so i'm kinda force to buy CDs!!! I bought Wang Li Hong, Lee Hom new album for $6. Why so cheap? Coz is imported from China not taiwan. Is the real, original cd, though i prefer tw version. That cd shop in chinatown is forever crowded. Is a small and cramped shop with very disorganised display of cds.

Law is such an interesting subject!!! It can be objective and subjective... Today i could understand the lecture unlike the last 2 days. I like to hear the true law cases provided is not long-winded & complicated, if not i'll be lost. I admire advocate lawyers but there's always black sheep.. Like the way they speak, playing around with words, they're witty. I like those righteous lawyers from novels like atticus finch but i dun really read books.

this is weird... i woke up this morning... and i realised on the back of my knee caps there'r signs of scratches... Did i scratched myself unknowingly when i'm sound asleep?

These are some pics from 鬥魚 The Outsiders, a serial drama that i mentioned recently. A story that blends love, friendship & the underworld society so perfectly. If you wan to watch a tw ou xiang ju, this is a must-see show. Got to know more abt the other unknown side of society through the show.

语燕, yu hao's gf in the show. She's pretty :)

于皓, the main character in 鬥魚 The Outsiders.

This week i'm so free and i want to work but the clinic is temporarily closed until further notice. They didnt tell me the reason. Here are the updates for past 2 days happenings. Yesterday i met my primary school fren to watch My Brother, but we discovered that the earliest show is 6pm, so in the end we didnt watch. I have not met him for 2 yrs, he's still as tall and skinny. When I saw him, it somehow reminds me that time flies... On thursday, had fun at k box with a bunch of my classmates :) After the ktv, had some talk abt the same thing again. I just listen and learn a bit from pple experience.

曾经这么靠近爱情，却没极力争取，在一瞬间， 它就消失不见。
因为犹豫不决，时间一旦过去，它就成为永远的遗憾。

讨厌那些不折手段的乌鸦，不管他们有什么理由，都不该成为第三者，破坏别人的美满家庭。

Little zebin should grow up, mature!!! U can scold me crazy but i have been quite affected by a taiwan drama called The Outsiders. It reflects reality & society so much and is a sad ending coz 2 pple got murdered. One died coz she wanted to protect her buddy, the other died coz he was a threat in the underground society. I heard that is a good show (and it is) thats y i bought the vcd. I mean if i know that it is a sad ending, i probably would not watch. The reason why i dun like stories with sad ending, coz the reality is already cruel, so i hope that fictional story can have a fairy tale ending. Why make yourself feel unhappy watching a sad show? Sometimes after i watched it, i still feel sian. Happy stories or at least with a happy ending make me feel happy & hopeful.

Ok tomorrow is new day, a new day is a new beginning, who cares abt wat happen in the drama? Life has to move on...

Today's cycling at east coast park is fine, a bit tanned now. Had fun talking while cycling with margaret & sharon. Life is very routine, everyday is the same. I finished watching the hk drama abt a rich family murder case. The moral of the story is never be too greedy & revengeful, it will make the worst of you. Money is the root of evil.

I was looking for some old letters and when i read them i realise how silly i was in the past. haha. Now sms & msn have replaced many forms of communication. During my secondary sch days, i always talked on the phone & wrote letters. I still have many letter pads with cute prints. Lazy to write letter coz there's sms. If you have long lost pen pal or any friend whom u miss, why not write a letter to him or her.

I'm happy to hear that SIM is going to be Singapore's 4th university but where would this course/degree lead me to? As each day passes, you change, dreams & ambitions may change. How can you be sure that what you're doing now is what you want in the future? Perhaps i'm thinking too much again...

This week is so boring & slacked!!! Coz of the boring lessons, is not juz boring, also coz we learnt the stuff before. From the lecturer's point of view, he muz be qte disappointed seeing so many pple skip his lessons. Today i ran 2.4km with anfernee but of coz he is faster than me. I was jogging anyway. Feel a bit nauseous during & after the run. But after resting, i'm ok. Felt good that i exercised coz I didnt exercise for abt one month!!! Is not good to be tooo freee coz I end up sleeping too much & watching vcd at home or start my imagination abt things again. And my frenz are only free during the crowded weekends, so this week is really nothing- to- do. I'm looking forward to saturday ecp cycling :)

Happy birthday to myself. I'm 20! This yr birthday is different coz i made frenz from the bdeft class. Thank you pple for the wishes. It has been 2 yrs since i last received bday cards. Usually my frenz juz give me presents without cards. Whatever it is, i appreciate it a lot. I like cards or letters with written wishes inside more than an expensive present. I was damn happy to receive a card sent from an old friend, didnt expect him to snail mail me. My birthday wishes and resolution for 2005

1) hope my complexion improves soon
2) tsunami lost victims can be found soon
3) hope i can find true love soon
4) get to know my friends better
5) dont be such an anti-social
6) study hard for better grades
7) spend more time with God
8) be a better friend, daughter & sister
9) learn driving soon
10) dont spend as much as last year.
11) be a happier person!

This morning i watched Phantom of the Opera with jinny, nizhen, ping2, wendy & yue ting. The movie is long & slow going. Just like the musical, the movie is song & music. I didnt really understand :p so cant appreciate it much. I like the songs & settings. If you like musicals, dun miss it.

I went k box at orchard with lauren & margaret to sort of celebrate my birthday. Lauren as usual doesnt sing much or is whispering to the mike. She left first. Next, me & marg went to queensway shopping centre to check out on shoes. I saw 2 pairs of shoes that i like, each from nike & addidas. The addidas one is more expensive but unique. Next, we went to tiong bahru plaza. I saw the same pair of addidas shoes there but in different colour. I decided that i'll buy the addidas one at tbp asap. I juz asked my parents to pay half for the shoes but they are rather reluctant... Favouritism works in all parents. Parents always dote on their youngest child. I'm the youngest but i dun get everything that i want... Anyway i'll persuade them to sponsor half or more for the shoes.

Today i was met with poor customer service!!! I went to the Value Dollar shop at tiong bahru plaza. I saw this piggy bank which is a golden pig. I wanted to buy a pair for display purposes in the living room for chinese new yr. I ask the shop assistant if there's box for it. He said in mandarin "One carton 48 pieces has box!" He was loud and rude. I mean obviously i'm asking for a box for only one piece. At the cashier counter, the cashier looks like a butch. I dun discriminate homosexuals if they can work juz as well as anybody. She didnt make any eye contact, and was smsing while giving me my change. I know is a shop which all the things are cheap so you cant expect much. There should be an acceptable level of customer service. Being polite to customer makes yourself and customers happy.

Today is consider a long day... I worked at the clinic juz now. There's a colleague who always cannot come last minute. I was suppose to work with her tonight, then she didnt turn up & she didnt inform us abt it... I had to do everything, from registration to dispensing medicine. Is rather simple job but I had to do it all by myself, so it means that the waiting time for patients is longer. Pple always come in when we are going to close. Instead of closing at 9, we closed at 10pm! Luckily this is a private clinic with high consultation charges, so there are not many patients. We can slack when there'r no patients :p

In the morning, me & lauren met delia at raffles place. Coz she wanted to eat this fish bee hoon soup that she highly recommends. The fish is very fresh and the home made balachian chilli is extremely spicy!!! Juz a little of the chilli is enough to 'spice up' ur whole throat. We roamed around raffles place for a short while coz there's nothing much. Fashion shops there are more for working adults. There is good and cheap food there... we will try the jap cuisine the next time.

My 1st jigsaw puzzle, 500 pcs. Yeah. Took quite long to finish it... The beginning is difficult then gets easier when is going to be completed. This whole thing including the frame cost me like $65!!! Coz they're all Made in Japan :( If you notice, there's a faint line in the picture, its the reflection from the lights i guess.

Kungfu...

I watched Kungfu last night. Some part of the movie is funny and the kungfu actions are really exaggerating. I would rate it 3.5/5 Is juz another very Stephen Chow movie. I personally like the settings & background in the movie.

HAPPY NEW YEAR?

hAppy new year! But this new yr is filled with grief for many, especially the immediate families of those who lost their lives in the tsunami. Treasure and enjoy ur life and pple around you before is too late. Life is unpredictable.

I juz came back from malaysia yesterday. Went my grandparents house in muar, then to my cousin's house in JB to stay on wed. BAsically, it was eating and sleeping well & early for the 5 days. Have u ever longed for a childhood playmate that grows up with u? Or you already have one? One that is really close to you, both of you are real buddies. I always yearned for a childhood mate that can protect me when i being bullied, as we grow up, he'll be there for me when i'm troubled. My playmates are my paternal cousins but they are in malaysia. I hate to admit but the truth is as we grew up, we became more distant. When we were still kids, there is running & chasing, games to keep us together but now? Conversations are superficial. I'm having mixed feelings... As you are older, you learn more, you know more too, u also realised that the reality works this way. The cheerful, naive heart has turned to a pessimisstic, pragmatic mind.

I know i think too much, and it was wishful thinking on my part... perhaps i like him, i dunno...