I juz came back from malaysia yesterday. Went my grandparents house in muar, then to my cousin's house in JB to stay on wed. BAsically, it was eating and sleeping well & early for the 5 days. Have u ever longed for a childhood playmate that grows up with u? Or you already have one? One that is really close to you, both of you are real buddies. I always yearned for a childhood mate that can protect me when i being bullied, as we grow up, he'll be there for me when i'm troubled. My playmates are my paternal cousins but they are in malaysia. I hate to admit but the truth is as we grew up, we became more distant. When we were still kids, there is running & chasing, games to keep us together but now? Conversations are superficial. I'm having mixed feelings... As you are older, you learn more, you know more too, u also realised that the reality works this way. The cheerful, naive heart has turned to a pessimisstic, pragmatic mind.

I know i think too much, and it was wishful thinking on my part... perhaps i like him, i dunno...