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Sunday, February 19, 2012
Time flies. 2 months passed since my taiwan trip. Back from yet another trip.
I was quite touched when i knew he went around to help me find my wallet. Then i reminded myself why am i feeling this way? I am finding excuses and reasons so as not to fall in love with my best friend. Since he is my best friend, i am sure he feels obliged to help me get my wallet. Though i did not expect to but i guess he feels obliged.
Conclusion is I don't like him. I am just confused.
So near yet so far. I find myself interested in this colleague that sits very near me. I am quite shocked that i feel this way. I am already 27 years old, why do i have crush on guys? A 27-year-old girl or woman should not have crush on guy.
有缘千里来相会，无缘对面不相逢The above words describe us. If we are not fated to be, sitting so near also does not mean anything. What should i do? What can i do?
I think i can only let this crush slowly fate away.
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i dream-ed at 10:34 PM
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Back from my taiwan trip
There were some disputes and confrontations during the trip. I am glad that is over. I am glad that we talked things out.
I am quite disappointed. I thought that I understand my friends, I thought that I knew them but I don't.
Someone whom I only knew for a few days actually pointed out that I am the possessive-type of friends. I reflected on this and realized that I indeed am a possessive friend.
I expect my friends to tell me everything. If not almost everything and update me about how they are doing. I don't wish to know about them through facebook or from a third party mouth, regardless of who the third party is. It has to be my friend telling me personally how he or she is doing.
I am also someone that my friends can rely on and count on me. If I had promised them something, I will fulfill the promise. I always feel obliged towards them if they ask me for help or to accompany them.
The question is why am I a possessive friend? It is solely because of my character? Righteous, royal to friends?
Or it is that I am feeling lonely, so I subconsciously become a possessive and a very good friend to fill up these emptiness and loneliness in me?
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It has to be this trip, each time after every good trip ends, I will miss the people that traveled with me and miss the moments we shared together.
Now I am confused, I do not know if is just the normal post-syndromes of a good holiday OR that I have... I have fall in love with him? Love is too much. I should say or that I could have liked him?
I agree with his friend that we are compatible. I had never thought about this until his friend mentioned it. We are compatible but... but we do not have mutual feelings for each other.
I am still confused, I am hoping is just the the normal post-syndromes of a good holiday.
I am just unhappy with the fact that I do not know what type of girl he likes. I am not jealous of the girl he likes is not prettier than me. Yes, it has to be the fact that I thought i understand my friend, i thought i knew what type of the girls he likes but actually i am mistaken.
i dream-ed at 11:38 PM
Sunday, November 20, 2011
I am recently watching In Time with You, 我可能不会爱你
Is about that 2 good friends that have been friends for 14 years old. The guy loves the girl but he has never confessed until the girl realized that she also loves him... then they are together and married.
My friendship with him is not so close like the Da Ren & YouQing but we are good friends, we are buddies. 9 years of friendship.
I do have the urge occasionally to confess but i won't. Friendship is like a balance. If you are cross that line of friendship, you are damaging the balance between you and him.
Too much concern is also cross the line, making one side of the balance heavier.
I treasure our friendship more than anything else.
i dream-ed at 7:15 PM
Monday, September 22, 2008
Hope that this is a good beginning for me and us.
I am still in this dreamy, disbelieving state but I hope for the best.
i dream-ed at 1:41 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Shall not blog about this, i feel better now.
MASKS
People wear different masks. Wear mask to protect themselves. Wear different mask when they meet different people.
Mostly importantly is removing that certain mask when you need to. No point putting up a strong front all the time when you are really tired and unhappy. Don't be too hard on yourself. Revealing the weak and soft side to people that you trust is a beautiful mask itself as that is the most trueful you.
i dream-ed at 9:02 PM
可能不可能 - 郑秀文爱变成秘密 藏在这最心底
只要想起你 其他都多馀
终于我们只是 短暂的遭遇
虽然背地里 挥之不去
怎能不耽心 怎能不善解人意
除了爱你 还有好多的问题
心情还在继续 已经不能任性
Chorus
到最后 我们可能不可能
问你 回答你
如果还能见到你
一定还要见到你
到最后 我们可能不可能
问你 回答你
幸福的样子
曾经那么接近
我的心看过你 为我动心
一直相信 那并不容易
不断想过去 把现在忘记
我替你收集 每一个记忆
原来我的位置 若有人代替
至少我的心里 一直有你
怎能不耽心 怎能不善解人意
除了爱你 还有好多的问题
心情还在继续 已经不能任性
i dream-ed at 8:52 PM
Sunday, June 29, 2008
I ate this green tea ice cream from Raffles City basement on recent Thursday with my colleague. We had dinner before that at Shokudo at City Link, so we were quite full already but I finished abt 2 cups of green tea ice cream including his share.
When i do not have appetite for food, I still can finish desserts. I simply love desserts. I was reflecting about it...
Desserts makes me feel happy while eating them. 甜品给我很幸福的感觉，我就是喜欢这种很简单的幸福。
1. Ice-cream (green tea, mango, with nuts...)
2. Yogurt mixed ice-cream
2. Waffles
3. Waffles with Ice Cream or chocolate syrup
4. Chinese desserts (ice mango sago, tao suan...)
5. Cakes (tiramisu!, durian, carrot cake, cheese...)
i dream-ed at 3:41 AM
I feel very much consoled and comforted by my friends overwhelming reaction and concern for me. Thank you.
Thank you Delia. Thanks Pch. Now the problem is really nothing when i think of how my friends consoled me :) It really touched me. I hate the feeling of being intimidated.
I must become stronger. I must keep my goals and priorities in mind all the time. I am too weak. I must become stronger and better!
I thought I got over it.
Whatever it is, no matter how i feel, i cannot and will not dwell in these. Being in self-pity and self-saddness is useless. Move on. Look ahead. Only physically alone. I'm not alone. Be satisfied. Be contended. Be HAPPY. Work hard. Work hard. and WORK HARD.
Work hard at work! Focus, let not others influence you, nor let them sway you, be strong, be firm. Stand by your principles. Keep your values. We are not Jesus, who stood by his faith to save men but at least we can learn from him.
i dream-ed at 2:37 AM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Since i started this job, this week is the busiest! Busy yet fulfilling.
Perhaps my heart has become stronger and more immune to emotions now. The fact is the Truth really hurts but it is also the truth that let you understand the harsh reality of life, let you see people's true colors and made you into a stronger person.
I got over it. That was the last chance for us. I must not push my luck any further. Thank you God.
Have you ever think of someone and wish for something and that someone appears and that something happens?
i dream-ed at 11:10 PM
