在这７３０多天的日子里,　我们有好多机会可以说话，聊天，做个朋友


现在随着你的离开，　原来的机会都没了,　任何的可能性等于零

人生里总是有遗憾, 你是我的遗憾吗?　还是我们可能连做朋友的缘分都没有


我一直在想, 我们有机会再相见吗? 若再相见, 会是陌生人, 还是一个美丽的意外?
  

孫燕姿　遇見

阴天　傍晚　车窗外　未来有一个人在等待
向左　向右　向前看　爱要拐几个弯才来

我遇见谁　会有怎样的对白
我等的人　他在多远的未来
我听见风　来自地铁和人海
我排著队　拿著爱的号码牌
我往前飞　飞过一片时间海
我们也曾　在爱情里受伤害
我看著路　梦的入口有点窄
我遇见你　是最美丽的意外
终有一天　我的谜底　会揭开

Felt a little better after changing the template of my blog to something more colorful & vibrant!

Conclusion is that People can be happier by changing an environment.

人是可以换个心情, 换个环境, 然后变得开朗一些

He is so popular, so many girls but also guys sent him off on his last day.

After the crowd disperse, I finally pick up the courage to say a few words of farewell to him.

"Today is your last day? All the Best." He initiated to shake hands. I never like the shaking hand gestures as is a form of formality. Being formal means that you are not close with the person. Oh well but at least he bothers to shake hands with me.

"Are you moving on to do the same thing?" He said yes, then  his colleague interrupted so that was the end of our conversation.

22 May 2012 His last day with our company

I had a dream last night. It was so real. 日有索思, 夜有所梦

I dream of him. He stays in the unit opposite my flat. We always bumped into each other but we never talk.

I find myself so pathetic. 可悲

He is taking wedding photos in June and talks about wedding banquet occasionally, yet
I still want to know how his fiancee looks like.

I finally had the answer that i wanted to know badly. If not that i sat near him and stayed back late
i would never have known that he has a fiancee.

Time flies. 2 months passed since my taiwan trip. Back from yet another trip.

I was quite touched when i knew he went around to help me find my wallet. Then i reminded myself why am i feeling this way? I am finding excuses and reasons so as not to fall in love with my best friend. Since he is my best friend, i am sure he feels obliged to help me get my wallet. Though i did not expect to but i guess he feels obliged.

Conclusion is I don't like him. I am just confused.

So near yet so far. I find myself interested in this colleague that sits very near me. I am quite shocked that i feel this way. I am already 27 years old, why do i have crush on guys? A 27-year-old girl or woman should not have crush on guy.

有缘千里来相会，无缘对面不相逢

The above words describe us. If we are not fated to be, sitting so near also does not mean anything. What should i do? What can i do?

I think i can only let this crush slowly fate away.

Back from my taiwan trip

There were some disputes and confrontations during the trip. I am glad that is over. I am glad that we talked things out.

I am quite disappointed. I thought that I understand my friends, I thought that I knew them but I don't.

Someone whom I only knew for a few days actually pointed out that I am the possessive-type of friends. I reflected on this and realized that I indeed am a possessive friend.

I expect my friends to tell me everything. If not almost everything and update me about how they are doing. I don't wish to know about them through facebook or from a third party mouth, regardless of who the third party is. It has to be my friend telling me personally how he or she is doing.

I am also someone that my friends can rely on and count on me. If I had promised them something, I will fulfill the promise. I always feel obliged towards them if they ask me for help or to accompany them.

The question is why am I a possessive friend? It is solely because of my character? Righteous, royal to friends?

Or it is that I am feeling lonely, so I subconsciously become a possessive and a very good friend to fill up these emptiness and loneliness in me?

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It has to be this trip, each time after every good trip ends, I will miss the people that traveled with me and miss the moments we shared together.

Now I am confused, I do not know if is just the normal post-syndromes of a good holiday OR that I have... I have fall in love with him? Love is too much. I should say or that I could have liked him?

I agree with his friend that we are compatible. I had never thought about this until his friend mentioned it. We are compatible but... but we do not have mutual feelings for each other.

I am still confused, I am hoping is just the the normal post-syndromes of a good holiday.

I am just unhappy with the fact that I do not know what type of girl he likes. I am not jealous of the girl he likes is not prettier than me. Yes, it has to be the fact that I thought i understand my friend, i thought i knew what type of the girls he likes but actually i am mistaken.

Falling in love with a good friend???

I am recently watching In Time with You, 我可能不会爱你

Is about that 2 good friends that have been friends for 14 years old. The guy loves the girl but he has never confessed until the girl realized that she also loves him... then they are together and married.

My friendship with him is not so close like the Da Ren & YouQing but we are good friends, we are buddies. 9 years of friendship.

I do have the urge occasionally to confess but i won't. Friendship is like a balance. If you are cross that line of friendship, you are damaging the balance between you and him.

Too much concern is also cross the line, making one side of the balance heavier.

I treasure our friendship more than anything else.