我现在正在听 7多花 的 迷宮。“ 我不要自己一个人去面对未知的迷宫， 眼看着幸福就在前头，却无法到手。。。”

我已经越来越不知道我的未来在那里。。。

Just a short note before i study for the test. Hope i dun go to bed like that. Today is a demoralising day looking at the companies offered for the Internship briefing i went just now. None are related to wat i am studying now. No finance companies at all. There is DBS but I can't choose. I wonder where my degree will bring me...

Next is the japanese class. Its hard to learn a language if u dun have chance to use it. I recall how i learned to speak in english. Learned it when i was taking school bus to school with all the kids talking in english. Thats how i picked it up myself when i listened.

Japanese?? Almost an impossible mission. Its only the beginning and i already think its almost impossible. but NOT impossible. Nowadays i like to question myself too much... When i feel like giving up on learning jap, i ask myself - What then is my purpose of learning? Its like NO meaning at all. I like languages more than other subjects. I love the literature part of a language. No, no, not the olden shakespears period's language or the ancient chinese used. I love reading a novel and analysing the characters etc. I miss E Lit. class... I have a lot comments abt Singapore education system of Chinese & the values & beliefs our government hold for the language. I think is...

Getting long-winded again... get back to main point 1st...

I just have nothing better to do, too free so i wan to pick up another language & mayb find a job that requires me to use the language. Coz in spore, dun need other languages to survive. I am just so nothing-better-to-do. I enjoy the class, keeps me focus for the 3 hours. Is hard to daydream in langauge class.

I cant just give up like that! I taking it as self-challenge! Human beings are different because they can be tested for difficulties! Fruit for thought: What are your challenges in life? Maybe learning how to skate, play musical instrument, learn how to sing!

Anyone watch winter olympics recently? I think only i did. I watched Figure Skating, Skiing & Ice hockey :) Figure skating = elegant + graceful!

I am very lazy to blog. plain lazy. Posted pictures of my little niece and my friends. Met my cj friends abt 1 mth ago b4 chinese new yr. Sort of to celebrate my birthday but it was more of a class gathering. Its not easy getting these guys together for a meal! I was from science class in jc, so most of my classmates are guys. yup. I hope all of us will find our own goals in life. People at different stage of life talk abt different things. When would be the next time we meet? What would we talk abt the next time? Work? Marriage?

Plan, plan & plan... What is your plan for life now? I am always trying to plan. but somehow the plan gets no where. means no plan in the end. I remember a teacher once told me, if u set ur goals early, u already know wat u want, u will work harder towards it. No time wasted. I miss school life, miss school uniform, miss the teachers that chase after us for homework & getting angry with the boys...

what's next now? What is the next step?

I just hope one day i wake up, my skin will be become wat it was. Do u believe in last life? Buddists believe in reincarnation. Christains believe they only live one life. Karma? There is a saying in chinese 无仇不成父子。 无怨不成夫妻。I heard it from tvb drama, haha. so i dun know if they are passed down from the great chinese ancestors. It means if there is no hatred or some form of vengeance, 2 pple wld not become father & son or become couple. I interpret it as 2 pple own each other a lot in their last life, so they become couple or father and son.

I believe in last life. I believe and accepted Christ but i'm more of free thinker. My main point is i wonder wat did i do wrong in my last life to deserve a bad complexion? Dun worry, i am not sad. Its not the end of the world. Conclusion is: The retribution for sins u've committed will fall on u but it mayb in your next life or on the people u love. Who knows? I used to think if i have $, i can fulfill my dreams. I have $ to go overseas to do study what i like. I would have done a dietician degree. Then what abt those who are borned with a silverspoon in their mouths? The rich. The pretty. the clever. Its NO use envying them. Its their fate. Its their life. 这是他们的命。

Am i getting long-winded? haha. one thing leads to another. one thought leads to another. So what is next?

No idea.

Next is abt my little baby niece. I went over to my sis-in-law's house yesterday. I carried her for only 15 mins and my arms were already aching!!! She has running nose, so need to carry and coddle her to sleep. We carried her for abt 1 hr in different positions then she finally falls asleep! When my arms were aching while carrying her, i understood a bit of - "Its NOT easy to bring up a child". Cheers to all great mothers & fathers in this world.

babies are the miracles of life. yeah. :)

my little niece is 1 mth old now... cuter!

Any good looking boys or guys? haha.

nice cake, pretty girl & handsome guy?! haha. yeah.

Dinner with my jc old pals at Ricetable to celebrate my 21st bday... abt 1 mth ago...

Little Chiyo in Memoirs of Geisha... got this pic from delia blog..lazy to search for one..

just a short note b4 i go to bed! i am lazy to write long stories.

Finally watched Memoirs of Geisha!!! I love the movie! :) I must say i really like this type of historical movie. Story line that moves along history and culture of a country. The main geishas all portrayed their character well!!! GREAT! I like the little Chiyo! So pretty!!!

I am still in a HOLIDAY mood enjoying life here!!! But i am extremely broke. i would say bankrupt looking at the balance of my bank account. Shall not elaborate on this now.

Anyway pple I started 2nd japanese lesson already. I think japanese is easier than chinese. Not because i am good at japanese, i am a lazy student! No time to eloborate on this also... but i just want to say i am very proud of my race & culture! Chinese chinese chinese, yeah!!! Yoohoo!!!

ok la i need to sleep. oyasumi nasai. means good night in japanese.