MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Christmas is ok for me, it is kinda boring in fact, except for the part that I watched a xmas musical at church. I juz enjoy musicals so much if only i can understand & appreciate them, not those profound plays. I love the live singing, whether individual or choir, the direct contact the cast has with the audience, no ng at all.

I juz came back from jansen's bbq. Met up with eileen, and at a point of time i thought "We used to be so close but now i had to think of what to talk abt... " Talking is an art. Good form of conversation flows naturally. A friend told me, talking is a natural thing, it should not be a case when you had crack your brains to think of something to say. Donald is right, friends come and go. I still believe that friendship is eternal, is abt taking initiative to meet them. As for me & eileen, all i can say is the moments we spent together in school are kept in my heart.

A new year is approaching, and i'm going to be one year older, i have not accomplish much. When i looked back, i cant deny that i've grown up but to what extent? I have not really move on from anywhere... if there's a something to being with... I feel that I have not changed much in terms of character and thinking, which is probably good and bad. My friend said i dun look and behave like a 20-year-old...perhaps this is true. Pple always say they want to be themselves, but are also influenced by others. I'm what i'm now because of others, and my past that have moulded me into what i'm today. It is being yourself and what you truly are that makes a person happy. No doubt, i wan to be myself but i do care abt wat pple say abt me. I think deeply abt wat others comment and come to some conclusion to ignore it or change for the better.

I'm going malaysia as usual... until 29th, wed. HAve fun.

My cycling experience...

Today's trip to pulau ubin is more than words can describe. I always wanted to go pulau ubin. It was postponed again until today. Initially, i hesitated abt going coz my cycling skills suck. I looked forward to it but in fear too. I know i cant cycle on steep slopes & i panicked... To think i fell down on flat road, i wasnt concentrating coz there was a crowd of kids. Thanks Donald & Suz for helping me with the wound. The saying goes once bitten, twice shy. I was more careful and "taking instructions" from the rest when we were cycling towards the slopes. I'm still scared of falling down now but today's cycling is fun. Going downhill is really shiok, enjoying the breeze & crapping with them. Thanks Daryl, Lester, Donald, Ernest and Susan for slowing down :p My cycling improved tremendously after today :) There are so many 1st time. 1st time on ubin; 1st time cycling for hours & had thigh cramps, 1st time observing a peacock so closely...

The pulau ubin.

I felt this outing to Ubin is successful. There's so much to say. Go to donald's blog for more pics & details. I had the feeling of kampong life when i saw the houses and the run down toilets... We saw the peacock spreading and closing its beautiful feathers! Its movements are slow and proud. We saw 2 puppies feeding on its mother. We passed by this small cemetry : and stopped at a temple to rest. We drank ubin's kampong coconut which tasted saltish... Do go there if you want a extraordinary cycling experience but find pple who know the direction or can read maps well.

the swamp?

susan and me, looks cool!

clean & green service... picking up litter...

at the deserted quarry...

The past 2 days were very eventful for me. Yesterday was a GREAT day spent at the EAST! I went to the k box at tampines with delia. In the evening, we were cycling at pasir ris park. The chain came off the gears of the bicycle, thank you Delia for putting it back in place. I dunno how it is that i can cycle until the chains became loose :p We cycled towards loyang where the class chalet was then it rained! Good thing we seeked shelter in time. I nearly banged into this group of children when i returning the bicyle. We had dinner at downtown east Tea Valley, the bubble tea and crispy chicken are fabulous. Do try it if you go downtown east. Then I went de's house in tampines. Pple who lives at the east cycles, every block has bicycles parked at void deck. Anyway i juz rot at her house until I had to go home.

On friday which was actually the last day of work at ingram micro with de, but i didnt go. After the enrolment, i went shopping with Pingping until our bodies were aching. My feet and shoulders were aching. I was dead tired when i returned home.

The best part of working is when you are working with your friend and is an easy job. I still dislike telemarketing but I enjoyed my days at ingram. I'm gonna miss them. Me and de were talking & crapping in between the calls we made. I think temporary job with frenz is the most ideal coz you juz need to do ur part and ignore other colleagues, dun need to socialise. Given a chance, i dun mind going back for temp jobs, but they muz give me a more spacious sitting. Comfortableness and working environment is very important for being productive :)

I would only be paid next yr :( abt 2 more weeks to go...

Our desk, where is really cramped! And the person in charge of us
is sitting right behind but she didnt scold us for keep talking :)
The white plastic bag with sweets inside to keep us awake.

Me & delia at the lobby of the company.
We worked on level 3.

Christmas is around the corner. Is a festive season for everyone to celebrate, not juz restricted to the Christians. Have u ever thought of Jesus Christ and whether God really exists? I think all has questioned this before. I dun believe in coincidence and accidents or being "lucky", everything in life happens for a purpose, for a reason. My reason would be God arrangements and His blessings on me.

I went church yesterday and the message really had an impact on me, so i decide to share it here, regardless of whether you believe it or not. The message is God does things in favour of you. It means that when unexplainable good things happened, even minor incidents, is God's favor for you. It is God's supernaturnal power on you like the Ruth & Joseph story. It can be winning money, marrying the one you love & not out of obligation, to small things like getting seats immediately in a crowded place. It is not abt luck, it is God favours on us. All you have to do is to believe and pray to Him.

You may think that you dun need a religion coz your life is smooth sailing and pple only worry abt bread and butter. A religion probably cant feed you, cant give you wealth. You need God coz

1) humans beings are weak physically, vulnerable to illness

2) we are weak emotionally,

3) we have no supernatural power,

4) we cant predict life & death,

5) the good lives we are leading now may not always be this way,

6) our friends & family wont be around to help us all the time.

7) you yourself alone cant solve certain problems

8) His love for us is eternal

IS only in times of darkness or under difficult circumstances, when u're saved and seen the light, then you will realise is God's favor for you and his presence.

I'm not from a christian family. I came to believe in God when i was in sec 2. During that yr, i had those silly friendship problems and there were gossips abt me. From then, i went school's chapel everyday and knew a senior. She and God were my strength and support when i was feeling rather down at that time. I believe God sent her to help me. I went chapel everyday until i backslided in sec 4 until this yr. I'm tryin hard to stay close to Him now, is hard to be really commited. I'm proud of brother who is a faithful devotee, God speaks to him. Even now i'm still qte slacked. I confessed i dun go church every week :( I find comfort in praying coz i think too much.

Religion is a controversial issue...

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through him might be saved. -John 3:16-17

I watched polar express with an old pal and went swensens for ice cream. We are not really very close but is because of all the fond memories we had in sch that keeps our friendship going and brings us together whenever we are free. And she's studyin in melbourne.

The polar express is a movie for those who fantasize Santa Claus, is a family or kids movie. The theatre were full of families. Why did i watch it? I thought it was nice. I would have enjoy it more if i'm still a child who looks forward to Santa Claus to deliver presents to me personally on Christmas. When i was a child, i never had this dream too. But i do have dreams of a white christmas with my own house covered with snow!!!

I spent abt $80 today! At the rate i spend money, i can never save enough for my very own digital camera!!! I spent 3/4 of it on jigsaw puzzle & a frame for the jigsaw puzzle. I dun recall fixing a jigsaw puzzle on my own, besides those jig puzzle for kids, the big pieces one. I bought a 500 pcs winny the pool & frenz jigsaw puzzle! YEah* I dunno if i'm gg give to anybody my 1st master piece, or i shall place it in my room and feel proud of it. haha. I think i'm getting too bored so here i come, i'm going to conquer the 500 pcs jigsaw puzzle! It is 35X 49 cm, is no easy job ok.

Ok off i go now...

The story of the gigantic "lizard"...

On 1st day... During lunch time, there were a group of pple crossing the bridge above kallang river, when they were reaching the end of the bridge, they suddenly screamed and ran. Me & my friends who were walking some distance behind wondered what happen? We crossed the bridge safely.

The hawker centre at kallang has wide variety of food and almost all are delicious and cheap. To walk there from the offices, u muz cross a bridge. On the 2nd day, when me & my friend were crossing the bridge, from far i could see a head popping out of the gap between the drain covers of the bridge. Then after a while, it hid itself. I run across whenever i reach that end of the bridge, coz i dun wan to see the creature's head suddenly popping out to scare pple! And my friend looked into the hole where it is hiding, she said it looks like terrapin!!!!????? But i dun think is a terrapin coz it looks like a snake's head from afar! When we were returning to the office, we had to take the same route, another group of pple screamed at the same spot and walked on the road instead.

On the 3rd & 4th day, rainy weather...no sign of the head...

On 5th day, a sunny wednesday, when we are walkin back to the office, from far we saw something lying on the bridge, and my friend thought is a wooden stick!!!???? Looks rather fishy to have a wooden stick out of no where, coz there were no trees on the bridge. I slowed down my footsteps, and my friend, Dede is qte brave, she walked ahead of me to check out what is that, and guess what??? When she was nearing the so-called wooden stick, it moved!!!! It got up and started crawling, i could see its tongue sticking in and out like lizard's tongue!!! It is black in colour with 4 legs!!! It has long and smooth body which looks like that of a lizard! Except that it is a 100xs bigger in size!!! Dede was standing near to the reptile and it probably got scared and crawled back into one of the holes. I juz ran across the bridge. I'm more scared of it than it is scared of humans. De said is about 30 cm long! Wah! Is not commonly seen in spore so i dunno what kind of creature is that, but it shd be a reptile. Is living alive under the brigde towards kallang hbd flats.

Walked into the hair salon on mon and wanted to cut short hair but after they washed & blow, i changed my mind. Dun ask me why, i always cut hair, leave a little long then cut again. Is a repeating cycle, thats why my hair is always in a mess :) I juz trimmed my hair.

I'm lazy to blog nowadays coz i'm tired after work. And i'm also working part time in the night at some clinic. It's 2 or 3 days a week for 2 hours. I need to keep myself occupied, I cant stay home and rot coz my mind will wonder off... also 'coz i need money!

Anyway today i saw a BIG LIZARD!!!! Or you can call it a reptile!!! It's really huge. Is about 30-40 cm long!!! You pple muz be wondering where i saw it right... i nv thought that that sort of place would have this scary creature!!!

The story continues... the rest is up to ur imgination for now... my eyelids are getting heavier.

A warning to shoppers out there, there are on-going sales but DON'T buy something juz because it is cheap without careful thoughts, or you may regret. If is shoes and clothes, please try them on first! If you're buying shoes, please make sure they are really comfortable. I bought this pair of shoes for half price, yes it is very cheap for shoes but... When i wore them today then i realise that they are NOT as comfortable as i thought when i tried them on in the shop!

Met up with my bmp friends juz now for dinner & pool. If you want to eat some cheap jap food with average standard, u can try the one at Basement 1 of Cineleisure. The chawanmushi is ok. Yeah i finally learnt how to play pool. The moment, when i hit the balls and they got into the hole, exhilarates me!!! Hmm is actually quite fun, at least to me is more fun than bowling. I cant bowl and dislike bowling. My impression of playing pool changed. You juz gotta try out new things yourself then you'll know if is fun...

Need to sleep for now. I miss sleeping so much when i work...

Went steamboat buffet with them... boohoo not everybody is in the photo!!! Without fail, i cosumed a lot of food!!! I thought the gathering could have been better.


My girl friends!!! They are my sec 2 old mates. Cheers* all chio bus...

Margaret, sharon & me.

These juz came to my mind once again...

How many times in life you wished you could turn back time and restart everything over again?

How often you hoped all these that are happening was a dream and you just woke up from the dream and can make a right decision?

How can a life be exciting if there are no regrets? How can u learn to treasure things if you have never lost them? How do you experience the meaning of pain if you never fell down? Because there are regrets, then we learn lessons from them.

因为拥有，才害怕失去。
因为失去，才懂得珍惜。

The job is not as bad as i thought except that the seating is cramp. And I'm qte happy that i'm working with my jc buddy. Dede, if u're reading this, i juz realise that we have known each other for almost 3 years!!! Yeah! I was sick for these 2 days... but better now. Think i didnt have sufficient sleep and i need to work, thats y i fell sick. And my appetite is very big coz i get hungry easily when i'm working! I need to exercise! The hawker centre near the office at kallang has a lot cheap & good food that is making me fat. but who cares, i juz eat as much as i want for now. my daily route is desserts. i juz love desserts. I know of somebody who cant take spicy food and can only eat average amounts because he has gastric problems and it isnt a problem since young, so pple enjoy eating while u can, but exercise too.

Met new friends yesterday, i simply have nothin to talk to them. After that, i start thinking abt everything again... Tmr i'm starting the horrible job. Wish me the best.

In 1st yr NS
an overseas medical graduate...
from a famous & well-off secondary school...
above average looks
loud & hoarse voice
has big hands
looks fit
a faithful devotee of God
outgoing personality.

but so?

I'm fantasizing & daydreaming again... hmm.. but i know i muz return to the real world.

因为不能拥有，所以更珍惜一切。

a different kind of stress...

Today i worked at my sister's company at kallang industy area. I took 8 hours to contact 40 pple to confirm their attendence for a workshop tomorrow. Most of them are dua pais, either GM or some section manager. So u know, dua pai are always busy having some meeting or whatever, so hard to reach them. Only 22 persons are going for the workshop. And i'm scared... what if they dun turn up tmr??!!! Coz after calling them i had to email them the confirmation mail with the venue & time of the workshop, so if they dun turn up tmr, everyone will come after me... I know i;m getting paranoid here. My sister is a like a typical, capable working woman, feel pressurised that i cant produce work up to standard. Means i cant slack at all coz everybody in that small corner is watching. I'm NOT lazy at work but i do slack if there's nothing to do. And from the next week till the month ends is telemarketing at her company. Gosh! I have to call people for the whole day. I have to say even if is doing easy tasks but u'll still feel stressed... Coz is qte hard to find a satisfactory job within such a short time and i hate agencies, so i took on this telemarketing thingy and the pay is good. It is a distributing company for computer products etc, they ever fire pple who cant meet sales target!!! For now i better ENJOY while i can b4 next wk starts.

I saw this from a friend's blog & find it interesting...

People say life is a book. How you made it out to be depends on what you write in it. Then how do you erase the things you've enscribed in the book? You can recall the events by flipping back to previous pages, but u cant changed what that is written down... ...

the shutter :|

Wanted to go east coast park to cycle but the friend who organised it cancelled it. Nevertheless i still met up with my buddy for a movie. Havent seen her for almost 3 months? We watched the thai horror movie, Shutter. I seem to have fetish for thai horror movies coz they are usually based on true stories and they have a proper plot, NOT juz sound effects and bloody scences only to scare you without understanding what is going on. I would rate the shutter as 4/5 stars. Is scary enough but with a clear plot. I notice something, some thais looked like mixed race, very sharp features, not bad looking :p Pple who likes horror movie, i highly recommend this movie.

After the movie, we juz shop around as usual. Then we went ktv, haha. Coz i owned sharon a belated birthday present, so i treated her to the ktv as her b'day present. Ok we were supposed to sing from 5 to 9pm, then after 6pm, the system has problems, the songs couldn't play. Then we moved to another room and waited for abt 30 mins for them to get ready the whole system. K Box usually dun chase customers away when is on time, and they own us time for the screwed up system. But we still left at 9pm, coz we were tired and my friend was feeling cold.

the main character, tun, who's a photographer.

tun's gf, jane. she's pretty. i think she has the typical thai-chinese look.

戏如人生，人生如戏。Life is like a drama. I see drama at home, see drama happening to myself and my friends. I'm going to talk abt post marriage life, mayb i'm not in the position to coz i'm on single status. What happens when after marrying for 30 years,

1) there are only insults & assaults when u talk to ur spouse?
2) there is total communication breakdown?
3) you pick on ur spouse for everything he/she does?
4) there seems to be a 3rd party but there is none at all.
5) when u are too old to divorce?
6) you've to find things to do to avoid quarrels?
7) when is more than juz mere tolerance?
8) then u realise is a mistake?
9) you wish u can juz leave the family behind?
10) there is no attempt to understand one another?

I'm still young and i havent seen much, havent experience major failures or any mishaps or terrible sufferings or diseases... my perceptions and character are still changing...

I'm fine juz need to lament abt certain things so i feel better.

the new safra.

I went to the new SAFRA near mount faber today. I wish i could apply for the membership!!! I like the swimming pool! Entrance fee is $3 for the public and free for the members. The swimming pool is under maintainence now... looks like i gotta wait. There's a bowling alley, gym, arcade cum lan shop, jackpot room, billiards room, disco, tennis court, cafe etc. But the gym is under another company, not safra's. There were so many kids in the arcade... All ns men or whatever status u're in, u can apply the safra membership for $32 per year. And u know u can purchase gv & cathay movie tickets in a bulk at cheaper price! Ok coz is near my house, so is conveninent for me to use the facilities...

After exploring safra. I went home, and i was slacking and watching some vcd. Then my good friend called me to ask me to meet her & her bf and his friends. I didn't feel like going out but i'm curious to see how her bf looked like, so i agreed to go for the dinner. When i was about to step out of the house, i checked my hp sms and realise that something cropped out, so she did not want me to go. I was irritated. And this is the 3rd time i experienced this. When i'm all ready to go out, then u tell me not to go. The 2nd time is when i arrived at the place, then i knew the whole thing is cancelled, and nobody informed me. I dun bear grudges against pple for this, coz they dun mean to change appointments at last minute, but at least pls call me immediately to tell me. Since i have changed, i went out with parents for dinner at chinatown and i bought this korean drama vcd which i've been looking high & low for it. There goes my money again... but I need to entertain myself next week before i start working full time.

luxurious-looking pool at the new safra
near my home.

Sleeping has become my hobby when i'm at home. But i went to find a job today. I found a part time job at a clinic near my house. Now i'm juz waiting for them to call me to tell me when to start. I still want to work full time for this holiday if it dosent clash with my part time job. And i shopped today, bought a 3/4 pants and a shirt at habour front after the job interview there. There goes my savings...

My friend has closed down his blog because it's over publicised. It makes me wonder what is the purpose of writing a blog? Or rather what is my purpose for blogging? Val said pple who blog are exhibitonists. Quite true. I think is also because they are lonely and need a medium to air their unhappiness. Perhaps it is like that for me. To me, a blog is a online journal for pple to see, so u'll only write things that u want pple to know, and not what u dun wan pple to see. Does this make sense? Maybe this is a hypocritical attitude coz u only write things pple want to see, so u'll never reveal your feelings. For me is a also a way for me & my friends to keep in touch, to know what i'm doing now coz i dun see them often.

The chalet at aloha loyang was ok. I was looking forward to the pulau ubin trip but is cancelled coz many were still sleeping as they stayed up the whole night. And the weather was surprisingly good for the past 2 days at chalet! I liked the sea breeze, my dream house is a bunglow facing the sea. On tues, went swimming with jinny & played mah jong till 5am but the rest continued. I'm better at mah jong now though still not clear of the rules.

Wed afternoon, went wild2 wet with anfernee, daryl, di you & jinny. It was fabulous. It was my 1st time for such water activities. I never been to fastasy island. On wed night, I went to explore the park and realise that downtown east is so near the chalet. I ran back from there happily thinking is a long distance for exercising but is so near!!! Oh ya jinny, i know u were worried for me when i went walking around alone and had not return. Thanks for calling to ask.

Thurs morning, when i woke up at 6am, leo passed me the keys then i realised my transportation are all gone!!! Vincent & eunice left with some others. I like to sit behind on vincent's lorry. Check out time is 10.30 and i had nothin to do, so went with lauren, ernest & randal to macdonald for breakfast. On the way, ernest picked up $10 bucks. How lucky can he be. After which, me & lauren went to the park to walk walk as it was still early. Dirty beach.

My body is aching when i came home this morning. I think is because of yesterday wild wild wet's slidings and jogging plus swimming. I had a good sleep finally, your own bed is still the most comfortable! Thanks to everybody for making this chalet a success!!! I'm lazy but hopefully i will start my job hunting tomorrow. I wan to shop!!!

The bbq... I love barbequed marsh mellows!

anfernee, diyou, daryl, jinny & me. Went wildx2 wet together in
the afternoon, it was fun.

the chalet house.

Went with dad to queensway shopping centre as pa needs a new pair of track shoes. When was the last time that i went out with dad alone? I can't remember. When we grow up, we seldom go out with our parents. Juz now was a good father and daughter bonding session. haha.

Went ktv with margaret and her friend at party world beside hello singtel @ orchard. We sang continuously for 4 and half hours! There were only 3 pple so i get to sing my favourite songs almost all the time without feeling pai seh. At the beginning, it was really shiok! After 2 hrs, we cant tahan and it was really cold. They were in jackets anyway but not me... : Hmm my singing is ok of coz :p but cant sing a high key for long. I was at orchard but i didnt shop at all, not even window shop, amazing! Is a long weekend, is so crowded everywhere. I juz went home with marg after that. I self-proclaim bankrupt!!! Spending money like that everyday, i need a job. I muz look for one after the chalet next week. For now, juz take a break 1st and live off my parents.

After rotting at home for 2 whole days, i went out today since early morning. I had an appointment with a skin specialist. And my doctor is on maternity leave, so another female doctor (again!!) is standin in for her. I think i'm a sexist. I know women can be equally capable as men but i somehow dun trust female doctots especially today's one. She dosent look like a doctor at all and she's extremely skinny... ok i shall being stop being judgemental. Pple are judgemental and will comment on 1st impressions. We cant escape from that. If there are things u cant change in life, learn to accept them for the way they are. Anyway my horrible acne problem is on and off... how i envy those with good complexion.

Then me & mum shopped at orchard awhile coz mum said she has nothin to buy. Mum already has a lot of clothes, takin up my cupboard space too. After that i went to meet ni zhen & wendy at si mei. We went ni zhen's house, i didnt know is a condo! Wao! Very nice fountains & kids pool. We completed a jigsaw puzzle together for yue ting birthday present. (Dun tell her ok, then it'll be a surprise). And ni zhen's cat look like some expensive, rare breed cat but it used to be a stray cat. It looks scary when i 1st saw it. I dun like cats. They dun feel as friendly as dogs. They give me a very mysterious feeling. Pls dun take offence, cat lovers.

For dinner, met up with my secondary sch old mates! WAh.... it been such a long time since i last saw u, feli! Suppose to have more pple but only 5 of us.. the usual more- on- pple. haha. We ate at billy bombers at hereen then we sat at mc cafe where we started some serious talks abt *ahhem... and we were kinda loud but who cares. But i'm not the one talkin most of the time, coz i've no experience. I didnt know they are so open abt certain things like xxx. They really grown up when i think of our good days back in sch.... B4 i met them, i knew they were gg to talk about relationships as usual. They can never avoid that topic! Pple at our age always talk abt relationships, mayb this is a sweepin statement to u. But pple around me seem to be all caught up in some love problems whether they've a stead or not. We had a really good conversation, now i know more abt.... I thought we went home too early but everybody was tired. My fren asked me why i am still not attached and who likes me, i like who...blah x3. The same old questions i have been repeatedly ask.

To my dear frenz who are concerned abt my love life>>> Let me tell u why i'm not attached:

nobody likes me &

i dun like anybody.

i've never seriously like a guy b4 i supposed coz

i dun wan to be hurt.

i hate guys but i love them as frenz,

i'm not pretty enough, but i'm proud of myself and thank God for who i'm.

i've bad complexion but i learn to live with it,

i think i'm weird,

i may be a lesbian subconsciously but i only like guys,

i'm juz waiting patiently & eagerly for the right person.

Pple who read my blog often will know i dun write much on my feelings & thoughts. This is unlike me, i'm not so open abt personal things on blog. But pple do change with time, pple are constantly changing. Thats it for now. And my girl frenz wan to introduce me to some guys...

To my dear frenz>>> we are all from girls sch but i know them, dun make me sound so pathetic ok :p haha But still if there's any good catch muz tell me! haha. Ok I'm gg to start my nonsense again. I'll stop here. Hope to see u pple soon.

exams over!!!

The exams are finally over! Went to eat with wendy, ni zhen, siti and some others at Seoul Garden at Taka. This time i didnt overfed myself with food at the buffet, which is good. I've been eating more than what i usually take for past few days. I muz exercise tmr! Probably jogging at my house's park, the park where the most concerned missing girl's body was dumped. Sounds scary, my fren actually sms me to tell me not to go there. Is still safe. I still wan to jog there though i'm scared. I need to exercise. I need to sleep. I'm having break outs again, if only i have good complexion. Ok no more side tracking...... After the buffet, ping2, siti & lauren went OP with me, i bought a shirt to accumulate enough amount for the members' card. We wanted to walk to Plaza Sing but it was raining!!!! Then we shopped at taka & wisma atria, Forever 21 is forever so crowded and clothes not placed in order. Bumped into charissa!!! Havent seen her 2 yrs?! I called her 1st, we exchanged numbers. I realise i still miss my sec 3 class a lot when i saw her though we not that close. Took mrt to doby ghaut with siti & ping2. When we were there it has stopped raining! Siti went starhub to collect her sim card, i love her, she's so crappy and funnie!!! We walked all the way back to orchard, coz siti wanted to check out this malay costume boutique there. We ate hagen das ice cream at marriot hotel and talked for some time b4 heading for far east plaza. There are 2 malay costume shops at far east. wah. ha.

craving for food!!!

I realise something.. i have very good & big appetite during pre-exams period! Yeah...... i like to eat! I'm craving for sushi & tawanmochi, that thing that looks like smooth beancurd, i know i got the spelling wrong!!! Somebody, pls leave a msg on tagboard & tell me the correct spelling? But i dun like raw meat. Some of those raw jap food makes me want to puke when i eat them. I only eat raw salmon with wasabi- to get rid of the raw taste. I'm craving for desserts also! The hot dessert: barley with beancurd skin with gikko nuts. & dao suan. I like to eat dessert as supper, but i dun like supper... contradicting ya.... this is me i guess. I dun take supper often, coz i get fat easily. Anyway for past few days, i have been listening to Liang Jing Ru 燕尾蝶 cd, not bad. Is still the same old style of jing ru love songs, except for a few rock songs. My dear sister bought qte a lot CDs recently including Sun Yan Zi's newest album. I like her new song 我的爱。 Ya it's juz a typical love song, but is nice. I like sun yan zi, i plan to collect all her cds but only have two so far.

tell them...

If you miss your friends or anybody u love, tell them u miss them. Tell them u love them. Tell them u treasure them. If you have not seen or meet up with them for long coz u're busy, call them! Even if is to say hi, even if is for a short 5 minutes conversation. Make the effort, take initiative to meet them 1st! I missed my good friends whom i have not seen for almost 2 months! One of them, we chit chat quite often on the phone, so even if we dun meet, we're still informed of each other lives. For the other gd friend, i have lost contact with him for some time, i missed him, so on the way home i juz took a bus and dropped by at his place without arranging for a time beforehand. You can call it a surprise. And we only talked for like 20 mins, but at least we met even is a short while. Yesh is a he, but we're only good friends. I believe that girls & guys can have platonic friendship. My frenz ever asked me if love is eternal, i'm still finding out my answer. But i know one thing for sure, friendship is eternal, your buddies will be with u till the end of ur lives. Tell them u love them. haha.

I'm far behind for the revision for exams, so pple if u're too, dun give up! Study as much as u can! Studied with anfernee and his 2 friends at nus juz now. Lauren is sick so i ended up studying with 3 men (but they look young). Anf's friends are identical twins! They are cute looking but who cares, they're not my type :p I'm waiting for the right person to enter my life. Waiting for exams to come, so i can play after that. Waiting for my dearest frenz exams to be over (after mine), so we can go out together!!!! i miss sharon~! Waiting and waiting...

nice weather

After lunch with ping2, wendy & the rest, i went school library with lauren. After awhile, Diyou called me to help him take his foolscap paper (with notes inside) coz he left it in the lecture theatre. When i went upstairs, the room was already locked! So i went up to the admin office and used the phone outside to call them, then they got somebody to open the room. Collected diyou's foolscap pad, from what i see, is not very important notes inside. haha. Then i returned to the library but din do much also. Today's weather is good in the afternoon, it was not raining. That day i ran 2 rounds at ngee ann poly track then rained! Finally managed to complete my 6 rounds today peacefully. Empty and dry track. Then i joined diyou, anfernee, jasmine and shun rong for basketball. They were already so shagged so only practised shooting with them.

out. late.

Joined donald, ernest, jasminex2 and the rest for the Man U vs Arsenal match at an open air place called beach bar near mohammud sultan. Man U won 2 vs 0. Wayne Rooney scored the 2nd goal for man u! Yeah! I'm not a big soccer fan but I liked Rooney and his name. haha. Lauren said he's kinda fat but he's not! Then we went bras basah to eat supper. I ate carrot cake. Was so tired when i got home at 3 plus am. It has been a long time since i last stayed out so late. Hey Junyi, thanks man, for sending some of us there & home.

Afternoon... Went to study with lauren at some community centre near tiong bahru plaza. And i shopped after that, i bought slippers! And i saw this pair of pointed heels which i liked a lot! I've no income and no extra pocket $ from pa.... oh no.. but i wan to buy that pair of shoes. Shopping is a very good way to divert attention from your problems. Juz make sure u buy what u'll wear often. I like to shop when i feel very sian.

周杰伦 藉口

我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头,我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果，我也能够承受
我知道你的痛，是我给的承诺
你说给过我从容 沉默是因为包容。
如果要走,请你记得我,
如果难过,请你忘了我。

~周杰伦 藉口

I am not a super jay chou fan but i like this song especially the chrous part with the above lyrics.

Juz another day.

Went nus central library to study with lauren. I bumped into pple i know, but who cares i juz told them honestly where i'm at now. My friend said last semester, they checked on students but so far we havent kena. Is a conducive place for studyin, super quiet. Then we went this coffee shop besides nus kent ridge bus terminal for dinner. We ate roti prata. I liked the teh tarik, is not too sweet but just right taste. Is a 24 hours coffee shop. I havent been able to focus on studies for the past few days!!! Horrible me! Finally managed to get something done today. Pple, dun slack. Study hard!

the movie 2046

Watched Liang Cao Wei's 2046 with Ni Zhen and Gilbert at Plaza Sing. Yeah i like GV cinemas. The movie doesnt have a clear plot! I heard that is a continuation from some tony and maggie cheung old movie. I think is ok on the whole. If you like tony leung or movies in the settings of 1960s, is highly recommended. NC-16 but not many obscene love scenes. I was quite confused about the story. Is about tony meeting different people in the hotel he lives in and he narrates about his own novel named 2046. Zhang Ziyi looks gorgeous in the cheong sams. For those who look forward to Maggie Zhang Man Yu & tony acting as a couple, sad to say, NO Maggie Cheung's acting at all. She only appeared short while for 3 scenes with no lines spoken. After the movie, went Starbucks near california fitness at orchard to sit, talk & crap. We had serious talks about many things of cos. Anyway i think i clicked w them. Gilbert is crappy la when he tried to imitate Tony Leung. Tony Leung Liang Cao Wei is good looking, duh! I really need to settle down to study if not i'll see PAs again! Pple, study hard & gambette!

Happy Birthday Lauren!

Me & lauren in marche's colourful washroom. haha.
Went nooch noodle bar 1st then went marche juz to eat creeps & waffle. Another fren came too but din wan to take pic!!! I ate this creeps with caramel banana plus ice cream toppings but very filling! coz of the cheese in creeps. Izzit cheese? Happy Birthday lauren.

Donald & jinny were talkin abt friendship on their blog. I treasure my friends a lot, who dosent? There's only one whom i tell my secrets to. I wan a clique so badly coz i did not have one since my good old days in sec sch. I wan to make good friends here. But i've been feeling weird, felt that i'm not part of the class for no reason. There was a period when i had no frenz, felt so lonely that i lived the presence with the past in mind. Keep on wanting to turn back time to the stc days. You'll realise n understand that friends are that important when u need them when u feel miserable. I'm glad to say that I have not been betrayed or hurt by my good friends. Hope that will not happen. True friends and those that whom u can really clique with are hard to come by. So if u all find them, treasure them!

Last day of school.

Wow so fast...... Finally can have enough sleep without havin to worry for datelines. Today is a long day. From morning to night. I was actually quite nervous during the presentation, was a little shivering. Havent been presenting for a long time. It was a good learning experience. I LOVE MY GROUP! oh yeah. THANKS pple. I'll miss you all. Love ya. Gilbert won the Best Presenter, we'r so proud of him but he deserves it. Donald is pretty good also. I dun mind stayin on with the same group for next semester but i wan the experience of working with others. All good things come to an end. 天下无不散的宴席。Feelings that i cant describe now. 一切竟在不言之中。Went Esplanade California Bistro to eat with ping2, gilbert & lauren. Then we actually talked for hours where i was being suan again :p

My group mates. Oh yeah :)

Ni-Chen & me!

responsibility

I'm so proud of our sia project, so proud of Ni Zhen's work in arranging the report into a newsletter & ping2 report. Well done pple. Got back our individual assignments today. Is your own work, things that u put in effort to do it, u'll feel proud of it especially if u done a good job. I really dislike those who ask others to do their assignments and projects when they have the capabilty of doing it themselves. They dunno what is responsibility. Asking people to do your work is worse than being lazy. Today as usual stayed back after school to do the project & i din know i'm suppose to rehearse my speech for presentation. I kind of know but I thought of completing the ppt slides first then prepare speech. Communication break down. Nothin is done in the end. I only got a PA for my financial services test plus the report. I expected it coz i only studied so little for the test. I've no discipline at home, I need to motivate myself to study!!!

So orange!

Me, sis & dad. I look so short here! Sis is wearing heels thats y she seem tall.

Wow, orange colour car. but too striking to be drove on the road.

i also wan to own a car.

Went with sister and dad to Nissan motors to collect her grand prize! A NISSIAN march CAR. How lucky can my sister be, she won a car. yesh. Nothing in this world is for free but she bought this travel package and only filled in a form for some contest and won the top prize, a car. But she's selling it. Anyway the car garage is really warm. The high ceiling fans are useless. No more procrastinations, i muz learn driving asap. To me, it is a skill to be mastered whether u've a car or not. I do have dreams of owning a car, dosent matter if is 2nd hand car. Then went school as usual for the project. What else can it be. haha.

tuesday blues?

This has become a place for me to air my grievances. Woke up very early today to meet them for menton project at 9am in school comp lab. Fazila is going to finalise the report tonight, so she borrowed my thumb drive with our work inside. As I would need the files inside the thumb drive, I emailed them back to my own yahoo account. And its been months & years since i used my yahoo account!!!! I happily thought all the files are sent. After class, i stayed back awhile help angela's group take photos. I juz 顺便 check mail in lecture theatre & realised that NONE of the mails are there!!!! Had a shock!!!! Coz there were so many docs. that I need to use later. Oh no!!!! And i didnt save any of them in the computer coz my cpu drive space is qte full. My comp is kinda slow.

Went jogging with lauren at ngee ann. We changed back to our own clothes. On the way to the bus stop, we bumped into anfernee and he asked us to join him for basketball. but it was already quite late, we thought maybe the game is over. Anyway we juz followed him to the basketball court opposite ngee ann. We wanted to change but thought of confirming if the bball is still on b4 changing again. So we juz wait outside the toilet for some time. Anfernee did not come back to tell us if is still on, and we were lazy to walk there to check. Tried calling him many times but he didnt answer. We only thought that the game is not on. So we juz left. oh how slow & lazy can i be. of cos the bball is still on, thats y he din pick up calls coz he's playing.

When i came home, then i realised something new abt the yahoo email account! Internet also changes with time. I didnt notice that i actually had to press the sent button twice to send it. And i actually thought all the emails are sent. how blur can i be!!! I think i really need to be more alert & observant and learn to think and act more like an adult. Imagine when i'm working one day, and i thought i already cleared the client's transaction in the comp when is NOT! I've been feeling quite weird these few days, i dunno how to say. Not that i'm unhappy...wonder what's wrong.. Every1 is busy with the 2 projects this week, only sleeping like a few hours a day?? Is gg to be over soon, gambette.

told to leave.

Met margaret at holland village delifrance in afternoon. lauren joined us later. siti came with her unexpectedly. Ohh holland v delifrance is a popular place for students..so many a levels pple there. bumped into anfernee there. We sat outside, trying to study. Noticed that it was quite packed. There are pple who came up but left coz there are no seats. After awhile, the manager came up and 'inspected' the whole place. Then the waitress told us we cant study here. We ignore her at first. Pple left. She told us that her manager will be angry if we dun leave. We get lost. and delifrance was rather empty after students left. They are throwing away business. We are consumers too. We at least buy a drink when we are there. and deli drinks are expensive.

Went orchard with margaret & lauren. We ate this taiwan snacks- crispy chicken. Highly recommended. Is call Shinlin Taiwan snacks on basement 1 of Far East Plaza. Try it! Walk around wisma atria and bought clothes from OP! They'r value for money. I'm broke. Need to work for my desires.

Whats wrong w me.

I've the sian look. So if i'm pissed, i cant hide. Is written on my face. I'm not good at hiding emotions. If i find something funny even if is not a joke, i'll laugh out very loud. I'm a loud person anyway. But i'm the kind who complains to pple & i'll get over it. If i dun complain or find some way to let it out, i'll juz die of unhappiness.

We haven't dicuss on menton project part 2 question & thats the more crucial qn. So i woke up early to do some draft 1st. My parents went jb, so i had to help my mum hang the washed clothes & get ready b4 gg out. By the time i'm done with it, it was already 12.30 and i dun wan to be late for the meeting at 1. I would be very late if i take bus. And i still had to walk to the bus stop which is 15 mins walkin distance. I took a cab. Is $6.90. I was the earliest. Then i went comp lab to print the draft, coz my printer giving me problems again. To my horror, the lab 5.30 printer has no ink. Fazila sms me that she'll be really late and apologized. Then gilbert came with something in point form when it shd be a proper write up. We havent discuss anything on part 2 and with no draft to show her coz of the printers!! I seem to be only one worrying abt the draft, and whether we are doing the right thing. And it was not a constructive discussion, too much distractions. I dun understand how izzit that pple have no sense of urgency. I'm not the leader nobody in the group is but i'm tired of taking initiatives, i'm tryin to be assertive but hard to get pple to follow. I even wondered if i've attitude problem.

I wasn't concentrating during class. Then during break, ping2 & fazila accompany me to find one lab with printers working. To ping2 & fazila, thanks. She approved the draft. I asked Gil to take care of everything for the next wk coz i'm tired. Hey Gilbert thanks a lot ya for listening to me, i know i can be very temperamental at times. I wonder whats wrong with me today. Was at bus stop, went back to school to find my thumb drive and later i found it in my bag! but i'm okay now. I still like my group. I'm learning. And i'm glad there are opportunities for me to learn to work in a team. This world juz doesnt revolve around me only.

Why am i here.

I'm tryin to do the menton project now, i think it sucks. This module is so much on customer service, makes me wonder why am i here, doing this? I think is such a stupid project. Ya i'm venting my frustrations here. I borrowed some books on customer service which i thought they might be useful but just gg through the books & cracking my brains for the 2nd question makes me feel exasperated. Thats y i'm not doing anything now, juz slackin here online.

Pamela is really nice, so direct abt hints for exams. i've seen teachers give hints but not like how she does it. "Giving pointers for exam.. This is risky, this is my ricebowl... This is very important..." She's funny. She gives real life examples. If i'm sad, i can just listen to her, and have a good laugh. I like her.

A day alone.

I finally went to watch The Terminal! Alone. Not that i've no friends juz that they're all busy. and this movie is gg to stop screening soon, it showed for almost a month. The last time i watched a movie alone was in sec 2 if i'm not wrong. Sometimes is quite hard to arrange time with my friends last minute or even one day in advance. I caught the morning show at tiong bahru plaza and there'r only 3 pple including myself in the cinema. They were also alone. I like gv cinemas, but is still a little scary at 1st coz it was so empty.

The terminal is a simple but close- to- heart story to me. Tom Hanks wanted to help his dad fulfil his dream, so he went to new york. but was detained by usa immigration officers coz his country is having a war and his nationality is not recognised. He stayed in the passengers transit department for months waiting... ... How often in life, we wait. Wait for the bus, wait for friends who're late, wait for the right person to enter our lives, wait for our loves one... waiting for the unknown & uncertainty, but still want to carry on. A common saying-好的东西是值得等待的。

After the movie, i went tiong bahru hawker centre to just to eat chicken rice. There's a queue. Is ok la. There'r other more famous food there. Then i went holland village delifrance to catch up on the past lectures. It was so noisy!!! I wondered how those a levels students there could actually concentrate? Then i went outside, the non air-conditioned area on the 2nd floor. It was less noisy except that there'r pple smoking occasionally. I've nothin against smokers but juz now after inhaling 2nd-hand smoke, i've headache. Mayb i was reading for too long thats y. My attention span is short. I was distracted quite often. It was time to go home anyway at 6. Friends who are interested to study with me, tell me ok.

People may find it weird that i went out alone, but i enjoy doing things alone once in a while. and some things can be done alone like watchin tv at home :p Shopping alone can be disastrous, i bought clothes i only wore once. haha.

Dinner at marche

Finally. I thought the blog site is down until ni-chen told me she juz left a post! then i know is my computer's fault. Tried re setting the internet options but to no avail. Using the kitchen comp.

I thought today's class was useful & a new way in learning. Learning from our peers as every1 took turns to explain their answers. Took Eunice's car to orchard. There are 5 of us sitting behind, so lauren had to sit on me & jinny laps, but she was sitting on me more, my thighs felt a little numb after we arrived.

Then went with donald, leo, eunice and jinny to taka to buy lester's present. Bought this a/x shirt and nautica pants for him. Almost the whole class share to get his bday pres, so nice of the class. Reminded me of the good old days again. Went marche to eat, there were around 20 pple or more? This is good business for them. Some of our classmates didnt know abt today's dinner, we should make more effort to spread the word around for the next event. Dinner is ok I ATE A LOT. Me and junyi seem to be the only ones still eating after the rest already finished. I felt a little pai seh.. but I found back my good appetite. YEAH :) I can't resist food sometimes.

Another boring sunday.

Ping2 and Ni-Chen came my house to do final editing for the FSI project. Mr Gilbert Tan pang sei us. know u don't mean to. Fazila already told us last wk she can't make it. They went off qte early. There's no dun need for 3 pple to spend one whole day editing. Ours is kinda long but who cares coz is finally completed! To date, this is my 1st major group project that I've done properly. Not to mention the horrible ProjectWork in jc. To think that i used to find it irritating coz my group mates are always late, but i was late b4 . haha. :p but I LOVE my group! We are all nice pple i guess, no dominating pple. Not that dominating pple are not nice. Juz that this is the style of our group. After working with them for 2 mths, I feel so proud of what we've accomplished together no matter what the marks are. Think i'll miss working with u all. To my beloved groupmates, thanks for putting up with me, i know i can be a bit slow & blur at times. then start side trackin..... :p

The class.

School has started for 2 months already! Time really flies. I think this class is great, i never thought that i can find such a together class after my secondary 3 class- 3 st Anne which was very united. This class makes me want to make new friends and establish a close friendship w them. Makes me want to care for pple and things happening in class. A strong & indescribable feeling.

Finally one saturday that i didnt go out. Stayed at home to complete FSI project.

Tired day...

In morning, went clementi gym with lauren, diyou, donald & anfernee. But i only used the gym for abt half an hour. haha. coz me & lauren went late. Then I called Gilbert to check out on fsi. The guys and us were doing different things anyway. Donald taught me how to life weights, i lift the light ones of cos to add bit of muscles to my flabby upper arms. Dun ask me why i dun like to go gym, i think is useless for me, i dun perspire much or not at all. But now that i know how to life weights, i've something extra to do besides juz using the same 2 boring machines there. haha.

Then attended the class that most of us disliked. Ya i think i'm used to teachers spoon feeding me with answers, but she should at least enlarge the size of slides so we can easily copy. I was squinting and straining my eyes to copy those slides.

Went jogging after class with anfernee, donald pang seh us. but nv mind. Used anf watch to take timing for my 2.4km, i realised it was my fastest record, wondered if i ran less one round? Anf thanks a lot for always lendin me ur watch, i know u wan take timing too.

(left to right) my sister, my brother,my sis in-law & me. Nice flowers eh? With the teddy bear couple. :)

This is my new family photo with my sister in-law. The decorations behind are done by my brother & his wife, i think is simple & nice.

An important day for some.

My brother got engaged and today is Mooncake Festival. I liked to carry paper lanterns when I was a kid, those were the days. Brother's ROM was a simple, solemn ceremony but filled with lots of love, meaning for the new couple! Most of my relatives dont stay in Singapore, is a pity that they cant attend but there's still the wedding dinner. My sister-in law side has many friends and relatives who came. Went to her house b4 the rom to help, but didnt do much. She has 4 sisters & 1 brother! Big family siah. I'm happy for my dear brother. Hope they'll be together forever. Felt a little bad coz we did not help much in preparations until today, so i msg 大嫂 that if they need help in future muz tell me. I only burnt a cd to be played during the whole thing. Then i helped to hold the bottom of her long2 gown when she was gg up & down the stairs. & clear up the room after it ended. Anyway i think every bride looks pretty and is the centre of attraction on their big day :)