tell them...

If you miss your friends or anybody u love, tell them u miss them. Tell them u love them. Tell them u treasure them. If you have not seen or meet up with them for long coz u're busy, call them! Even if is to say hi, even if is for a short 5 minutes conversation. Make the effort, take initiative to meet them 1st! I missed my good friends whom i have not seen for almost 2 months! One of them, we chit chat quite often on the phone, so even if we dun meet, we're still informed of each other lives. For the other gd friend, i have lost contact with him for some time, i missed him, so on the way home i juz took a bus and dropped by at his place without arranging for a time beforehand. You can call it a surprise. And we only talked for like 20 mins, but at least we met even is a short while. Yesh is a he, but we're only good friends. I believe that girls & guys can have platonic friendship. My frenz ever asked me if love is eternal, i'm still finding out my answer. But i know one thing for sure, friendship is eternal, your buddies will be with u till the end of ur lives. Tell them u love them. haha.

I'm far behind for the revision for exams, so pple if u're too, dun give up! Study as much as u can! Studied with anfernee and his 2 friends at nus juz now. Lauren is sick so i ended up studying with 3 men (but they look young). Anf's friends are identical twins! They are cute looking but who cares, they're not my type :p I'm waiting for the right person to enter my life. Waiting for exams to come, so i can play after that. Waiting for my dearest frenz exams to be over (after mine), so we can go out together!!!! i miss sharon~! Waiting and waiting...

nice weather

After lunch with ping2, wendy & the rest, i went school library with lauren. After awhile, Diyou called me to help him take his foolscap paper (with notes inside) coz he left it in the lecture theatre. When i went upstairs, the room was already locked! So i went up to the admin office and used the phone outside to call them, then they got somebody to open the room. Collected diyou's foolscap pad, from what i see, is not very important notes inside. haha. Then i returned to the library but din do much also. Today's weather is good in the afternoon, it was not raining. That day i ran 2 rounds at ngee ann poly track then rained! Finally managed to complete my 6 rounds today peacefully. Empty and dry track. Then i joined diyou, anfernee, jasmine and shun rong for basketball. They were already so shagged so only practised shooting with them.

out. late.

Joined donald, ernest, jasminex2 and the rest for the Man U vs Arsenal match at an open air place called beach bar near mohammud sultan. Man U won 2 vs 0. Wayne Rooney scored the 2nd goal for man u! Yeah! I'm not a big soccer fan but I liked Rooney and his name. haha. Lauren said he's kinda fat but he's not! Then we went bras basah to eat supper. I ate carrot cake. Was so tired when i got home at 3 plus am. It has been a long time since i last stayed out so late. Hey Junyi, thanks man, for sending some of us there & home.

Afternoon... Went to study with lauren at some community centre near tiong bahru plaza. And i shopped after that, i bought slippers! And i saw this pair of pointed heels which i liked a lot! I've no income and no extra pocket $ from pa.... oh no.. but i wan to buy that pair of shoes. Shopping is a very good way to divert attention from your problems. Juz make sure u buy what u'll wear often. I like to shop when i feel very sian.

周杰伦 藉口

我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头,我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果，我也能够承受
我知道你的痛，是我给的承诺
你说给过我从容 沉默是因为包容。
如果要走,请你记得我,
如果难过,请你忘了我。

~周杰伦 藉口

I am not a super jay chou fan but i like this song especially the chrous part with the above lyrics.

Juz another day.

Went nus central library to study with lauren. I bumped into pple i know, but who cares i juz told them honestly where i'm at now. My friend said last semester, they checked on students but so far we havent kena. Is a conducive place for studyin, super quiet. Then we went this coffee shop besides nus kent ridge bus terminal for dinner. We ate roti prata. I liked the teh tarik, is not too sweet but just right taste. Is a 24 hours coffee shop. I havent been able to focus on studies for the past few days!!! Horrible me! Finally managed to get something done today. Pple, dun slack. Study hard!

the movie 2046

Watched Liang Cao Wei's 2046 with Ni Zhen and Gilbert at Plaza Sing. Yeah i like GV cinemas. The movie doesnt have a clear plot! I heard that is a continuation from some tony and maggie cheung old movie. I think is ok on the whole. If you like tony leung or movies in the settings of 1960s, is highly recommended. NC-16 but not many obscene love scenes. I was quite confused about the story. Is about tony meeting different people in the hotel he lives in and he narrates about his own novel named 2046. Zhang Ziyi looks gorgeous in the cheong sams. For those who look forward to Maggie Zhang Man Yu & tony acting as a couple, sad to say, NO Maggie Cheung's acting at all. She only appeared short while for 3 scenes with no lines spoken. After the movie, went Starbucks near california fitness at orchard to sit, talk & crap. We had serious talks about many things of cos. Anyway i think i clicked w them. Gilbert is crappy la when he tried to imitate Tony Leung. Tony Leung Liang Cao Wei is good looking, duh! I really need to settle down to study if not i'll see PAs again! Pple, study hard & gambette!

Happy Birthday Lauren!

Me & lauren in marche's colourful washroom. haha.
Went nooch noodle bar 1st then went marche juz to eat creeps & waffle. Another fren came too but din wan to take pic!!! I ate this creeps with caramel banana plus ice cream toppings but very filling! coz of the cheese in creeps. Izzit cheese? Happy Birthday lauren.

Donald & jinny were talkin abt friendship on their blog. I treasure my friends a lot, who dosent? There's only one whom i tell my secrets to. I wan a clique so badly coz i did not have one since my good old days in sec sch. I wan to make good friends here. But i've been feeling weird, felt that i'm not part of the class for no reason. There was a period when i had no frenz, felt so lonely that i lived the presence with the past in mind. Keep on wanting to turn back time to the stc days. You'll realise n understand that friends are that important when u need them when u feel miserable. I'm glad to say that I have not been betrayed or hurt by my good friends. Hope that will not happen. True friends and those that whom u can really clique with are hard to come by. So if u all find them, treasure them!

Last day of school.

Wow so fast...... Finally can have enough sleep without havin to worry for datelines. Today is a long day. From morning to night. I was actually quite nervous during the presentation, was a little shivering. Havent been presenting for a long time. It was a good learning experience. I LOVE MY GROUP! oh yeah. THANKS pple. I'll miss you all. Love ya. Gilbert won the Best Presenter, we'r so proud of him but he deserves it. Donald is pretty good also. I dun mind stayin on with the same group for next semester but i wan the experience of working with others. All good things come to an end. 天下无不散的宴席。Feelings that i cant describe now. 一切竟在不言之中。Went Esplanade California Bistro to eat with ping2, gilbert & lauren. Then we actually talked for hours where i was being suan again :p

My group mates. Oh yeah :)

Ni-Chen & me!

responsibility

I'm so proud of our sia project, so proud of Ni Zhen's work in arranging the report into a newsletter & ping2 report. Well done pple. Got back our individual assignments today. Is your own work, things that u put in effort to do it, u'll feel proud of it especially if u done a good job. I really dislike those who ask others to do their assignments and projects when they have the capabilty of doing it themselves. They dunno what is responsibility. Asking people to do your work is worse than being lazy. Today as usual stayed back after school to do the project & i din know i'm suppose to rehearse my speech for presentation. I kind of know but I thought of completing the ppt slides first then prepare speech. Communication break down. Nothin is done in the end. I only got a PA for my financial services test plus the report. I expected it coz i only studied so little for the test. I've no discipline at home, I need to motivate myself to study!!!

So orange!

Me, sis & dad. I look so short here! Sis is wearing heels thats y she seem tall.

Wow, orange colour car. but too striking to be drove on the road.

i also wan to own a car.

Went with sister and dad to Nissan motors to collect her grand prize! A NISSIAN march CAR. How lucky can my sister be, she won a car. yesh. Nothing in this world is for free but she bought this travel package and only filled in a form for some contest and won the top prize, a car. But she's selling it. Anyway the car garage is really warm. The high ceiling fans are useless. No more procrastinations, i muz learn driving asap. To me, it is a skill to be mastered whether u've a car or not. I do have dreams of owning a car, dosent matter if is 2nd hand car. Then went school as usual for the project. What else can it be. haha.

tuesday blues?

This has become a place for me to air my grievances. Woke up very early today to meet them for menton project at 9am in school comp lab. Fazila is going to finalise the report tonight, so she borrowed my thumb drive with our work inside. As I would need the files inside the thumb drive, I emailed them back to my own yahoo account. And its been months & years since i used my yahoo account!!!! I happily thought all the files are sent. After class, i stayed back awhile help angela's group take photos. I juz 顺便 check mail in lecture theatre & realised that NONE of the mails are there!!!! Had a shock!!!! Coz there were so many docs. that I need to use later. Oh no!!!! And i didnt save any of them in the computer coz my cpu drive space is qte full. My comp is kinda slow.

Went jogging with lauren at ngee ann. We changed back to our own clothes. On the way to the bus stop, we bumped into anfernee and he asked us to join him for basketball. but it was already quite late, we thought maybe the game is over. Anyway we juz followed him to the basketball court opposite ngee ann. We wanted to change but thought of confirming if the bball is still on b4 changing again. So we juz wait outside the toilet for some time. Anfernee did not come back to tell us if is still on, and we were lazy to walk there to check. Tried calling him many times but he didnt answer. We only thought that the game is not on. So we juz left. oh how slow & lazy can i be. of cos the bball is still on, thats y he din pick up calls coz he's playing.

When i came home, then i realised something new abt the yahoo email account! Internet also changes with time. I didnt notice that i actually had to press the sent button twice to send it. And i actually thought all the emails are sent. how blur can i be!!! I think i really need to be more alert & observant and learn to think and act more like an adult. Imagine when i'm working one day, and i thought i already cleared the client's transaction in the comp when is NOT! I've been feeling quite weird these few days, i dunno how to say. Not that i'm unhappy...wonder what's wrong.. Every1 is busy with the 2 projects this week, only sleeping like a few hours a day?? Is gg to be over soon, gambette.

told to leave.

Met margaret at holland village delifrance in afternoon. lauren joined us later. siti came with her unexpectedly. Ohh holland v delifrance is a popular place for students..so many a levels pple there. bumped into anfernee there. We sat outside, trying to study. Noticed that it was quite packed. There are pple who came up but left coz there are no seats. After awhile, the manager came up and 'inspected' the whole place. Then the waitress told us we cant study here. We ignore her at first. Pple left. She told us that her manager will be angry if we dun leave. We get lost. and delifrance was rather empty after students left. They are throwing away business. We are consumers too. We at least buy a drink when we are there. and deli drinks are expensive.

Went orchard with margaret & lauren. We ate this taiwan snacks- crispy chicken. Highly recommended. Is call Shinlin Taiwan snacks on basement 1 of Far East Plaza. Try it! Walk around wisma atria and bought clothes from OP! They'r value for money. I'm broke. Need to work for my desires.

Whats wrong w me.

I've the sian look. So if i'm pissed, i cant hide. Is written on my face. I'm not good at hiding emotions. If i find something funny even if is not a joke, i'll laugh out very loud. I'm a loud person anyway. But i'm the kind who complains to pple & i'll get over it. If i dun complain or find some way to let it out, i'll juz die of unhappiness.

We haven't dicuss on menton project part 2 question & thats the more crucial qn. So i woke up early to do some draft 1st. My parents went jb, so i had to help my mum hang the washed clothes & get ready b4 gg out. By the time i'm done with it, it was already 12.30 and i dun wan to be late for the meeting at 1. I would be very late if i take bus. And i still had to walk to the bus stop which is 15 mins walkin distance. I took a cab. Is $6.90. I was the earliest. Then i went comp lab to print the draft, coz my printer giving me problems again. To my horror, the lab 5.30 printer has no ink. Fazila sms me that she'll be really late and apologized. Then gilbert came with something in point form when it shd be a proper write up. We havent discuss anything on part 2 and with no draft to show her coz of the printers!! I seem to be only one worrying abt the draft, and whether we are doing the right thing. And it was not a constructive discussion, too much distractions. I dun understand how izzit that pple have no sense of urgency. I'm not the leader nobody in the group is but i'm tired of taking initiatives, i'm tryin to be assertive but hard to get pple to follow. I even wondered if i've attitude problem.

I wasn't concentrating during class. Then during break, ping2 & fazila accompany me to find one lab with printers working. To ping2 & fazila, thanks. She approved the draft. I asked Gil to take care of everything for the next wk coz i'm tired. Hey Gilbert thanks a lot ya for listening to me, i know i can be very temperamental at times. I wonder whats wrong with me today. Was at bus stop, went back to school to find my thumb drive and later i found it in my bag! but i'm okay now. I still like my group. I'm learning. And i'm glad there are opportunities for me to learn to work in a team. This world juz doesnt revolve around me only.

Why am i here.

I'm tryin to do the menton project now, i think it sucks. This module is so much on customer service, makes me wonder why am i here, doing this? I think is such a stupid project. Ya i'm venting my frustrations here. I borrowed some books on customer service which i thought they might be useful but just gg through the books & cracking my brains for the 2nd question makes me feel exasperated. Thats y i'm not doing anything now, juz slackin here online.

Pamela is really nice, so direct abt hints for exams. i've seen teachers give hints but not like how she does it. "Giving pointers for exam.. This is risky, this is my ricebowl... This is very important..." She's funny. She gives real life examples. If i'm sad, i can just listen to her, and have a good laugh. I like her.

A day alone.

I finally went to watch The Terminal! Alone. Not that i've no friends juz that they're all busy. and this movie is gg to stop screening soon, it showed for almost a month. The last time i watched a movie alone was in sec 2 if i'm not wrong. Sometimes is quite hard to arrange time with my friends last minute or even one day in advance. I caught the morning show at tiong bahru plaza and there'r only 3 pple including myself in the cinema. They were also alone. I like gv cinemas, but is still a little scary at 1st coz it was so empty.

The terminal is a simple but close- to- heart story to me. Tom Hanks wanted to help his dad fulfil his dream, so he went to new york. but was detained by usa immigration officers coz his country is having a war and his nationality is not recognised. He stayed in the passengers transit department for months waiting... ... How often in life, we wait. Wait for the bus, wait for friends who're late, wait for the right person to enter our lives, wait for our loves one... waiting for the unknown & uncertainty, but still want to carry on. A common saying-好的东西是值得等待的。

After the movie, i went tiong bahru hawker centre to just to eat chicken rice. There's a queue. Is ok la. There'r other more famous food there. Then i went holland village delifrance to catch up on the past lectures. It was so noisy!!! I wondered how those a levels students there could actually concentrate? Then i went outside, the non air-conditioned area on the 2nd floor. It was less noisy except that there'r pple smoking occasionally. I've nothin against smokers but juz now after inhaling 2nd-hand smoke, i've headache. Mayb i was reading for too long thats y. My attention span is short. I was distracted quite often. It was time to go home anyway at 6. Friends who are interested to study with me, tell me ok.

People may find it weird that i went out alone, but i enjoy doing things alone once in a while. and some things can be done alone like watchin tv at home :p Shopping alone can be disastrous, i bought clothes i only wore once. haha.

Dinner at marche

Finally. I thought the blog site is down until ni-chen told me she juz left a post! then i know is my computer's fault. Tried re setting the internet options but to no avail. Using the kitchen comp.

I thought today's class was useful & a new way in learning. Learning from our peers as every1 took turns to explain their answers. Took Eunice's car to orchard. There are 5 of us sitting behind, so lauren had to sit on me & jinny laps, but she was sitting on me more, my thighs felt a little numb after we arrived.

Then went with donald, leo, eunice and jinny to taka to buy lester's present. Bought this a/x shirt and nautica pants for him. Almost the whole class share to get his bday pres, so nice of the class. Reminded me of the good old days again. Went marche to eat, there were around 20 pple or more? This is good business for them. Some of our classmates didnt know abt today's dinner, we should make more effort to spread the word around for the next event. Dinner is ok I ATE A LOT. Me and junyi seem to be the only ones still eating after the rest already finished. I felt a little pai seh.. but I found back my good appetite. YEAH :) I can't resist food sometimes.

Another boring sunday.

Ping2 and Ni-Chen came my house to do final editing for the FSI project. Mr Gilbert Tan pang sei us. know u don't mean to. Fazila already told us last wk she can't make it. They went off qte early. There's no dun need for 3 pple to spend one whole day editing. Ours is kinda long but who cares coz is finally completed! To date, this is my 1st major group project that I've done properly. Not to mention the horrible ProjectWork in jc. To think that i used to find it irritating coz my group mates are always late, but i was late b4 . haha. :p but I LOVE my group! We are all nice pple i guess, no dominating pple. Not that dominating pple are not nice. Juz that this is the style of our group. After working with them for 2 mths, I feel so proud of what we've accomplished together no matter what the marks are. Think i'll miss working with u all. To my beloved groupmates, thanks for putting up with me, i know i can be a bit slow & blur at times. then start side trackin..... :p

The class.

School has started for 2 months already! Time really flies. I think this class is great, i never thought that i can find such a together class after my secondary 3 class- 3 st Anne which was very united. This class makes me want to make new friends and establish a close friendship w them. Makes me want to care for pple and things happening in class. A strong & indescribable feeling.

Finally one saturday that i didnt go out. Stayed at home to complete FSI project.

Tired day...

In morning, went clementi gym with lauren, diyou, donald & anfernee. But i only used the gym for abt half an hour. haha. coz me & lauren went late. Then I called Gilbert to check out on fsi. The guys and us were doing different things anyway. Donald taught me how to life weights, i lift the light ones of cos to add bit of muscles to my flabby upper arms. Dun ask me why i dun like to go gym, i think is useless for me, i dun perspire much or not at all. But now that i know how to life weights, i've something extra to do besides juz using the same 2 boring machines there. haha.

Then attended the class that most of us disliked. Ya i think i'm used to teachers spoon feeding me with answers, but she should at least enlarge the size of slides so we can easily copy. I was squinting and straining my eyes to copy those slides.

Went jogging after class with anfernee, donald pang seh us. but nv mind. Used anf watch to take timing for my 2.4km, i realised it was my fastest record, wondered if i ran less one round? Anf thanks a lot for always lendin me ur watch, i know u wan take timing too.