Pch is sleeping... whenever she is back in s'pore, she will get me thinking abt some things with all her talks and perceptions of how life should be lived... @#$%&^*!!!!

I finally knew why. Found the answer. To the question that I have been asking myself. I finally knew why. I didn't purposely go and find the answer. I reckon i dun like to purposely look for answers. It just came when i talked to my friend. Now that i know why, it doesn't help at all. I should have known it earlier. I did. subconsciously. I am accepting it now. I should snap out of it. Snap out of my dream.

Its already freaking late... but i am sitting here staring into the black space and thinking abt the possibilties that are all just a dream. People will scold me crazy. Yes it is. I am questioning myself again.

I am fine. My is just a silly problem and wishful dream. thats all. I just need to snap out of it. My friend is back for a short vacation, so these few days its orchard, orchard and orchard. I cant take it anymore!!! haha.

What's next now? Stop thinking so much. Sleep lesser. Developed brains dun have to sleep that much. That is why babies sleep, sleep & sleep...

Good night.